12:00 pm
OMG is she ever fussy today :( She seems hungry but when I feed her she falls asleep! GAH!! Why does this always happen when I got no sleep. Unless she is tired and is just being stubborn about napping. She never goes down for a nap anyways when I try to do so, the only time she naps is after she falls asleep when I'm feeding her then sleeps for x amount of time. I hope this isn't going to turn into a huge headache when she is older. :/
1:03 pm
How do you get a three month old to take a nap when she won't go down for one but she is obviously super tired?!? That is the question. I really don't want to have to nurse her to sleep all the time, I think that might be a bad thing, at least at this point. Right now she is in her swing and not crying so that is good. We will see if I act boring if she will fall asleep. :(
1:05 pm
yep totally jinxed myself there. Now she is crying. Ugh. I will see what she does if I ignore her for a few minutes and not be so in a rush to go see what's wrong. Especially since I KNOW she is tired. Of course if she starts screaming at the top of her lungs that is a different story. ooh it's like she cryies then stops to see what mommy will do then does it again. Sneaky monkey. LOL. Now of course she has stopped the crying and is almost passed out or at least her eyes are getting drowsy, I think?. Score for mommy! .... maybe? Every time I glance over at her quickly it's a different face on her.
1:10pm
okay back to a slight cry and chomping on her hand! WTH? Now I am doubting it's just a case of the tiredness and now thinking she might also be hungry. I know I have said it before but I seriously hate breastfeeding. You can't tell how much she gets! UGH!
1:35pm
omg what a monkey! I was about to get her to check her diaper then feed her since the last time I did so was at 12 (I had to give her her soother earlier to make her stop crying) and I just looked over and she is sleeping! lol. I guess ignoring her works since a few times I looked over at her she smiled at me and laughed. So boring momma works for putting her to sleep when I know she is sleepy
11:17pm
So strangely enough baby passed out on her play mat of all places around 8 pm. She was crying before that. I knew she was tired though. Chris put her soother in and she had a hold of his finger and the next time I looked she was out. He transferred her to her cradle where she stayed asleep. I thought she was going to wake up within the 20 mins that she normally does but she didn't. Not until 9 at least. We let her do her semi cry for a few minutes but then she started screaming at the top of her lungs. I thought maybe it was because she had a cloth diaper on so when I went in there to get her to check to see if she needed a clean one she let out a huge burp when I picked her up so no wonder she was crying. I changed her into a disposable anyways (the cloth one was fine) and tried to lull her back to sleep. She almost fell back asleep a few times but then would turn her head all the way to one side and open her mouth wide so I figured maybe she was routing for food. I took her back out to the living room and fed her and within 15 mins I was back in the bedroom trying to get her to sleep. I held her for a few mins until I knew she was drowsy then put her in her cradle. That is the hardest part because she always wakes up when I do so. I put her blanket around her tightly then held her hand and rested my arm semi on her body. She eventually was out like a light. It might have taken about 20 mins though. So it was almost 10 before I came back out to the front room. She has been asleep ever since though! I will attempt to dream feed her very soon so she hopefully doesn't wake up at 2 again that would be brutal for me considering I am already freaking tired!!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
11:11 am
Today seems so long. Monkey has been crying and I have no idea why! I think she just wants to be held constantly or she just needs a nap and is being stubborn. :( geez.
10:05pm
I think we might have managed to put her to bed at 10 tonight! I nursed her to sleep since she was super cranky and she passed out and I was able to actually set her down in the cradle without waking her up. We have the CD mom got us for her the last time we were home on so if she does semi wake up it might lull her back to sleep. At least it won't be super quiet in there if she does. Hopefully she stays asleep. Only time will tell.
11:25pm
Well she is definitely down for the night. She hasn't made a peek since I put her to bed so that is good :) Now we will see if she wakes up at 2 or 3 in the morning like she did this morning. Ugh I hope she stops doing that again soon.
11:50pm
I definitely think that the pills are helping. I just pumped almost 2oz with the pump just now. Albeit it is at a time when she would have fed since it's been almost 2 hours since she last ate but still at least it collected something. UGH need to go to sleep so tired :( I hope she sleeps through the night tonight or at least until 5 or so! That would be nice.
Today seems so long. Monkey has been crying and I have no idea why! I think she just wants to be held constantly or she just needs a nap and is being stubborn. :( geez.
10:05pm
I think we might have managed to put her to bed at 10 tonight! I nursed her to sleep since she was super cranky and she passed out and I was able to actually set her down in the cradle without waking her up. We have the CD mom got us for her the last time we were home on so if she does semi wake up it might lull her back to sleep. At least it won't be super quiet in there if she does. Hopefully she stays asleep. Only time will tell.
11:25pm
Well she is definitely down for the night. She hasn't made a peek since I put her to bed so that is good :) Now we will see if she wakes up at 2 or 3 in the morning like she did this morning. Ugh I hope she stops doing that again soon.
11:50pm
I definitely think that the pills are helping. I just pumped almost 2oz with the pump just now. Albeit it is at a time when she would have fed since it's been almost 2 hours since she last ate but still at least it collected something. UGH need to go to sleep so tired :( I hope she sleeps through the night tonight or at least until 5 or so! That would be nice.
Monday, June 27, 2011
amazing...
It's amazing watching monkey discover the world around here. The other day she was in her crib after a diaper change and Chris called me in because she was just simply amazed at her hands. She was studying them, turning them this way and that just taking them in at all angles. Today just now she is on her play mat and had Mr.Lion in her hand studying him. She even managed to grasp his tail and pull on him hard enough to get the music to play. The intense look on her face makes me wonder what it is she is thinking!
Saturday, June 25, 2011
another bedtime failed attempt...
Last night was another one of those failed attempts at getting her to bed at bed time since she has a hard time falling asleep on her own. Maybe she just is too young yet. At the very least we will keep her before bedtime routine consistent so that she will learn that it means bedtime is here almost :) I think maybe tonight I will try to put her to bed instead of Chris. It didn't work when he did it the first time and we finally ended up just bringing her out with us again. So when I picked her up out of her swing and held her on the couch for a few minutes she start to drift off to sleep. When I put her into her cradle she didn't wake up so maybe it just needs to be a mommy thing. I know very soon we need to put her into her crib instead of the cradle but every time I think about it I put it off. She won't be in the same room as me anymore and it will be really weird and really hard to deal with. I'm sure I will spend most of my time getting up and going into her room to make sure she still is breathing and that she is doing okay :( bah. I might even spend the first few nights on the floor in her room. I'm nervous about the baby mattress that it's to squishy for her. UGH I am so paranoid.
She woke up again at 2-3am last night and did the same thing as before. Took a while to get her to go back to sleep. I finally tried to nurse her to sleep after she woke up when I put her back into the cradle the first time but she just ended up waking up again. I think Chris finally held her until she fell asleep. It was another long and exhausting night. I really hope this is just because of the growth spurt and that it stops really soon! I miss my sleep :( It was nice not having to wake up every 2 hours to fed her like just after she was born.
She woke up again at 2-3am last night and did the same thing as before. Took a while to get her to go back to sleep. I finally tried to nurse her to sleep after she woke up when I put her back into the cradle the first time but she just ended up waking up again. I think Chris finally held her until she fell asleep. It was another long and exhausting night. I really hope this is just because of the growth spurt and that it stops really soon! I miss my sleep :( It was nice not having to wake up every 2 hours to fed her like just after she was born.
Friday, June 24, 2011
11:09 am
Last night was interesting. I fed monkey and we bathed her and then tried to put her down to sleep in the cradle, albeit a little later then we wanted to. It was almost 9 and we are going to try and aim to get her to bed by 8. I knew she was tired since she was yawning and rubbing her eyes a lot but she was being very stubborn. After the bath we brought her to her bedroom and I was putting some lavender lotion on her when she looked at me and started screaming! I don't know what the hell that was about. So I ceased putting the lotion on her. I don't know if it was because of that or because she didn't like my facial expression or what. Chris got her diaper and pj's on really quickly and we sat down on the couch to nurse since nothing else was calming her down. She fell asleep soon after. We tried to leave her there for a bit but she ended up waking up when we were putting her into her cradle. We left her in there and went back to the front room. She sort of cried a bit but it wasn't anything bad so we tried our best to ignore it. It wasn't until she started screaming that we went to get her. She really needs to start to learn to fall asleep on her own :( . I don't expect this to happen over night and it might not be successful for awhile but we both think it's good to try to at least get her used to it or try to get her into a schedule of some sorts. At the very least bath her and get her ready for bed at the same time.
So I tried nursing her back to sleep again in the bedroom and she again fell asleep. Unfortunately when we tried to transfer her to her cradle she sort of woke up again. After 10ish mins of us sitting in there trying to get her to sleep we just brought her back out with us. I tried nursing her again and again she fell asleep. We finally did get her into her bed without her waking up around 11. So we had an hour or so of time to ourselves before we went to bed.
Heidi mentioned that when she does go through her growth spurt we might noticed that for a few days she will wake up at 3am again. I don't know if that was what happened last night or what but an hour after I went to bed (we went to bed around 1am which was a mistake ) she woke up crying. So I got up and fed her and tried to put her back in her cradle. Usually she goes right back to sleep but nope! I know today I feel so exhausted and I am sure that Chris does as well since he was the one that picked her up to try and bounce/rock/cradle her back to sleep. I was so tired that I felt sick to my stomach. It was horrible. I think he finally got her to sleep an hour or so later. This is like flashback to the first few weeks of her life! I really hope that that isn't a new trend. She woke again around 7 to eat and only slept for a little bit after I fed her. So I am tired. Although she is currently actually napping. I fed her around 10:45 am and only ate off one side before she was out and now is napping in her bouncer.
I wonder how long this will last but no wonder why she is sleeping! She didn't sleep to much last night. I feel like complete crap today :( . I am glad Chris will be home with me for two days though, her constant unhappy cooing is driving me up the wall :( Then I feel so bad that I feel that way. It just makes me feel that as her sole food provider she isn't getting enough from me. Generally I think her milk intake is better or at least nursing seems to be better. I don't know if it's because of the pills or because of it just getting better itself, who knows. I also am always worried since as soon as she is done eating her hand goes into her mouth and she chomps on that constantly. Unless of course crinkle bug is in her hands or whatever other toy is around her. I know it's common for her at this age to be sticking things in her mouth but seriously that along with her not happy cooing makes me feel like she is still hungry and I have to say feeding her on average 12 time a day is really started to wear me out. Some day I just can't cope and have like a breakdown just from exhaustion and frustration. I thought this was supposed to get better instead of worse! Thankfully Chris is always there when this happens so he can entertain her for the 10-15 mins that I need to feel better, but still!!!! AHHHHH
She continues to have enough wet diapers and poops except her poops are rarely the nice seedy yellow they are supposed to be so I really don't know what to think about that. :/ She generally seems okay though so maybe that is just normal for her?
12:05 pm
So since monkey is sleeping so good I decided to try to do some ab work. I did segment 1 and 3 of the firms core solutions. I really need to get my abs back into shape since they are sooo weak and my back as well since carrying and delivering monkey. I was considering doing the first mile of walk away the pounds but she was sort of stirring. She is still asleep though so I might. If not now then definitely later. I think Chris is right in that she probably would sit in her bouncer and watch me, at least for 15 mins which is how long the first mile is on that one video. Woo for working out again. Now I just have to work on my eating habits and it will be super!
Last night was interesting. I fed monkey and we bathed her and then tried to put her down to sleep in the cradle, albeit a little later then we wanted to. It was almost 9 and we are going to try and aim to get her to bed by 8. I knew she was tired since she was yawning and rubbing her eyes a lot but she was being very stubborn. After the bath we brought her to her bedroom and I was putting some lavender lotion on her when she looked at me and started screaming! I don't know what the hell that was about. So I ceased putting the lotion on her. I don't know if it was because of that or because she didn't like my facial expression or what. Chris got her diaper and pj's on really quickly and we sat down on the couch to nurse since nothing else was calming her down. She fell asleep soon after. We tried to leave her there for a bit but she ended up waking up when we were putting her into her cradle. We left her in there and went back to the front room. She sort of cried a bit but it wasn't anything bad so we tried our best to ignore it. It wasn't until she started screaming that we went to get her. She really needs to start to learn to fall asleep on her own :( . I don't expect this to happen over night and it might not be successful for awhile but we both think it's good to try to at least get her used to it or try to get her into a schedule of some sorts. At the very least bath her and get her ready for bed at the same time.
So I tried nursing her back to sleep again in the bedroom and she again fell asleep. Unfortunately when we tried to transfer her to her cradle she sort of woke up again. After 10ish mins of us sitting in there trying to get her to sleep we just brought her back out with us. I tried nursing her again and again she fell asleep. We finally did get her into her bed without her waking up around 11. So we had an hour or so of time to ourselves before we went to bed.
Heidi mentioned that when she does go through her growth spurt we might noticed that for a few days she will wake up at 3am again. I don't know if that was what happened last night or what but an hour after I went to bed (we went to bed around 1am which was a mistake ) she woke up crying. So I got up and fed her and tried to put her back in her cradle. Usually she goes right back to sleep but nope! I know today I feel so exhausted and I am sure that Chris does as well since he was the one that picked her up to try and bounce/rock/cradle her back to sleep. I was so tired that I felt sick to my stomach. It was horrible. I think he finally got her to sleep an hour or so later. This is like flashback to the first few weeks of her life! I really hope that that isn't a new trend. She woke again around 7 to eat and only slept for a little bit after I fed her. So I am tired. Although she is currently actually napping. I fed her around 10:45 am and only ate off one side before she was out and now is napping in her bouncer.
I wonder how long this will last but no wonder why she is sleeping! She didn't sleep to much last night. I feel like complete crap today :( . I am glad Chris will be home with me for two days though, her constant unhappy cooing is driving me up the wall :( Then I feel so bad that I feel that way. It just makes me feel that as her sole food provider she isn't getting enough from me. Generally I think her milk intake is better or at least nursing seems to be better. I don't know if it's because of the pills or because of it just getting better itself, who knows. I also am always worried since as soon as she is done eating her hand goes into her mouth and she chomps on that constantly. Unless of course crinkle bug is in her hands or whatever other toy is around her. I know it's common for her at this age to be sticking things in her mouth but seriously that along with her not happy cooing makes me feel like she is still hungry and I have to say feeding her on average 12 time a day is really started to wear me out. Some day I just can't cope and have like a breakdown just from exhaustion and frustration. I thought this was supposed to get better instead of worse! Thankfully Chris is always there when this happens so he can entertain her for the 10-15 mins that I need to feel better, but still!!!! AHHHHH
She continues to have enough wet diapers and poops except her poops are rarely the nice seedy yellow they are supposed to be so I really don't know what to think about that. :/ She generally seems okay though so maybe that is just normal for her?
12:05 pm
So since monkey is sleeping so good I decided to try to do some ab work. I did segment 1 and 3 of the firms core solutions. I really need to get my abs back into shape since they are sooo weak and my back as well since carrying and delivering monkey. I was considering doing the first mile of walk away the pounds but she was sort of stirring. She is still asleep though so I might. If not now then definitely later. I think Chris is right in that she probably would sit in her bouncer and watch me, at least for 15 mins which is how long the first mile is on that one video. Woo for working out again. Now I just have to work on my eating habits and it will be super!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
confused
1:16 pm
So now I am more confused. I posted on the boards and they still don't think I have a supply issue. Well I guess they don't know the full story though considering I have been seeing Heidi since she was born. I don't know what to think anymore. The less formula I give the better though. OMG at least today she isn't making this weird noise all day long. Yesterday I almost went off my rocker listening to it all day long. It just made me feel like she was constantly hungry :( Maybe it's just because she realizes now she can make those noises. UGH I wish babies could talk so they could tell us what is going on and what they are thinking!!
1:32 pm
scratch that she is none stop making that noise :( ahhh
So now I am more confused. I posted on the boards and they still don't think I have a supply issue. Well I guess they don't know the full story though considering I have been seeing Heidi since she was born. I don't know what to think anymore. The less formula I give the better though. OMG at least today she isn't making this weird noise all day long. Yesterday I almost went off my rocker listening to it all day long. It just made me feel like she was constantly hungry :( Maybe it's just because she realizes now she can make those noises. UGH I wish babies could talk so they could tell us what is going on and what they are thinking!!
1:32 pm
scratch that she is none stop making that noise :( ahhh
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
12:11 pm
It is so hard to hear Monkey cry. I fed her after we got up around 10-10:30 ish. Then fed her again around 11:30 since she was crying. After she was done she did nothing but cry :( or coo a lot but not fun/cute cooing, more like I'm hungry and cranky cooing :(. I was at the time trying to make some formula up for top ups through out the day. So finally at 11:20 I bf her first and then gave her 2 oz of alimentum since she seemed to be super hungry :( Now she is finally content which is a relief to me. I don't know if it's in my head but I *think* the meds might already be working. After the first let down on either side if she is still on there after 5 ish mins it seems she got a second one where yesterday that didn't happen. So maybe it's working. She still isn't getting a whole lot though since she is super cranky when I try to burp her between sides which before she wasn't. This sucks! I can see now why bottle feeding while easier on your breasts and sanity etc, is a pain in the ass. I have no idea if I am doing it correctly. Do I need to sterilize the bottles each time? What do I use to stir with, how do I sterilize the measuring cup since I'm supposed to sterilize everything and boil it for 5 mins. UGH! Hopefully my supply comes back. It's so much easier to express breast milk and fed that to her in a bottle if I need to give her a bottle. I am going to try and not give her supplementation after each feeding but will if I think she is not content and still hungry. I'm so glad I don't have to work right now or else this would be pure hell.
3:08pm
Well I don't know what to think at the moment. Right now she seems very content. I did just feed her (from 2:30-3:00) After she finished/I took her off the left side she didn't automatically go into a fit of rage and smiled and did her half laugh quite a few times. She also let me burp her which was a step up from yesterday and in the past. She did let out a good one to. I switched her to the other side and even though she did seem sort of fussy and eating her hands when I took her off, she is okay at the moment. I think she has discovered the top of her head. The last few days when she has been eating her little arm will go up and behind her head and she will be using her hands to scratch her head. I don't know if it's because she is finding the top of her head itchy or not. She has a bad case of cradle cap. Mom suggested that I use a little bit of baby oil on it before we bath her to see if it will help the scales loosen. I keep forgetting to try that but will hopefully remember tonight. It's cute when she reaches up with her arm, makes her look even more like a monkey :) lol.
I just hope this contentment is a sign that the meds are working. Although it could be that she just wasn't as hungry as she was because I had finished the last feeding about an hour before this last one. So who knows. Time will tell I guess.
It is so hard to hear Monkey cry. I fed her after we got up around 10-10:30 ish. Then fed her again around 11:30 since she was crying. After she was done she did nothing but cry :( or coo a lot but not fun/cute cooing, more like I'm hungry and cranky cooing :(. I was at the time trying to make some formula up for top ups through out the day. So finally at 11:20 I bf her first and then gave her 2 oz of alimentum since she seemed to be super hungry :( Now she is finally content which is a relief to me. I don't know if it's in my head but I *think* the meds might already be working. After the first let down on either side if she is still on there after 5 ish mins it seems she got a second one where yesterday that didn't happen. So maybe it's working. She still isn't getting a whole lot though since she is super cranky when I try to burp her between sides which before she wasn't. This sucks! I can see now why bottle feeding while easier on your breasts and sanity etc, is a pain in the ass. I have no idea if I am doing it correctly. Do I need to sterilize the bottles each time? What do I use to stir with, how do I sterilize the measuring cup since I'm supposed to sterilize everything and boil it for 5 mins. UGH! Hopefully my supply comes back. It's so much easier to express breast milk and fed that to her in a bottle if I need to give her a bottle. I am going to try and not give her supplementation after each feeding but will if I think she is not content and still hungry. I'm so glad I don't have to work right now or else this would be pure hell.
3:08pm
Well I don't know what to think at the moment. Right now she seems very content. I did just feed her (from 2:30-3:00) After she finished/I took her off the left side she didn't automatically go into a fit of rage and smiled and did her half laugh quite a few times. She also let me burp her which was a step up from yesterday and in the past. She did let out a good one to. I switched her to the other side and even though she did seem sort of fussy and eating her hands when I took her off, she is okay at the moment. I think she has discovered the top of her head. The last few days when she has been eating her little arm will go up and behind her head and she will be using her hands to scratch her head. I don't know if it's because she is finding the top of her head itchy or not. She has a bad case of cradle cap. Mom suggested that I use a little bit of baby oil on it before we bath her to see if it will help the scales loosen. I keep forgetting to try that but will hopefully remember tonight. It's cute when she reaches up with her arm, makes her look even more like a monkey :) lol.
I just hope this contentment is a sign that the meds are working. Although it could be that she just wasn't as hungry as she was because I had finished the last feeding about an hour before this last one. So who knows. Time will tell I guess.
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