tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32586561920154984932024-03-13T00:27:51.805-04:00Baby Monkey HouseThis blog is about my journey into mommyhood.Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.comBlogger283125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-90449014986116564662013-03-12T12:03:00.000-04:002013-04-19T12:48:43.703-04:00I can't let myself live in fear....(febrile seizure)<span style="font-size: x-small;"><div align="LEFT">
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<span style="font-size: small;">Last thrus was the worst day of my life. I woke up and followed our normal day schedule. I put monkey down for her nap at 2, I was going to wait a bit longer since the last week or so she was not falling asleep right away so I thought later might be better or that she is reaching an age where she might not always need a nap. When she does this I usually leave her in her crib to play or whatever for an hour or so for some quiet time at least.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Anyways around 2 I needed to change her and when I set her down on the change table she started rubbing her eyes. So I thought okay she must be actually tired so I might as well try and give her a nap now. I turned on the music and set her down and left the room. I didn't hear a peep out of her and at 4:30pm I realized wow she must really have needed a nap but being a mommy I started to worry and decided I needed to check on her. Even if she was still sleeping it might not be a bad idea to wake her up. Usually she would if I came into the room anyways because she might not go to sleep at 8pm easy. I stopped to use the washroom before I did so. The bathroom is right beside her bedroom. While I was in there she started crying. I was like well perfect timing on my part but I was also like crap she must have had a bad dream. That always makes me sad since I want her to wake up happy. I went into her room and she was laying on her left side. It looked like she was trying to push herself up in a sitting position but was having a hard time. I immediately became alarmed but thought maybe she was just sleeping on her arm and woke up to it being asleep and that was what was freaking her out. I was talking to her soothingly and was attempting to try and help her but became even more alarmed with the way she was crying and the way she wasn't even acknowledging that I was there. I was like OMG is she having a seizure!? For a split second I didn't know weather I should pick her up or not but then said the hell wit hit and scooped her out of her crib. I hugged her to my chest and then ran to the back of the house towards the phone. I stood in our dining room freaking out crying saying, <em><strong>'please don't do this to mommy!</strong></em>'. I was home alone with both girls and Chris was due to be home shortly. I stood there holding her thinking what do I do!? Do I call work to see what Chris thought but as soon as that thought entered my mind I threw it out because I knew something was not right. I sat down in the chair, monkey in my arms and dialed 911. They answered right away and she connected me to dispatch right away. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I told him I thought she was having a seizure and that she was jerking around and having trouble breathing. I just had this horrible sense of dread and I was so scared for her life. This I would never wish on anyone. I was trying to stay calm but it was hard. The operator was really good at keeping me somewhat calm though and was able to tell me just how close the ambulance was. I still had her in my arms and he said it was okay just keep her on her side and make sure she doesn't choke if she happens to vomit. He asked me if she was turning blue and more then a few times if she was breathing. He even had me hold the phone to her mouth so he could hear. He asked me as well if she had a fever and I was like no? all confused because she wasn't even sick so when I put her down I wouldn't have thought she might be running a temp or there was no indication that anything was wrong. But then I was thinking now that he mentioned it she was really freaking warm. Of course as well it was jammie day and she was in flannel jammies. Yep that's really great when you have a fever. He told me to take as much clothing off as I could to help the fever. He said they are almost there. He tried to keep me calm and when he knew they were outside my door he let me go. I don't even remember running with her in my arms and down the short flight of stairs to the front door. I don't know how I still held her in my arms and unlocked it so could hand her to the ambulance people. He rushed her to the ambulance and another ambulance person talked to me about what was going on. I had Chlobug as well but thankfully she was in her swing. I went to grab my sweater and jacket and scribbled a really short note to Chris. I rried to find my wallet and her health card. I was a complete scatter brain. I was trying to be as fast as I could but it was hard since the faster I tried to go the slower I was. I didn't even think of Chlobug's car seat I just grabbed her and a blanket and a snow suit thing that probably wouldn't have fit her. The ambulance guy was not sure how we were all going to go into the ambulance but then the other one asked me about the seat. I was like 'GENIUS!' He helped me by getting her in it while I went and wrote a bit longer of a note to Chris. Rereading it afterwards I don't know how he made any sense out of it.He said he had to read it a few times before he understood what I meant! I also didn't spell seizure right either.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I finally locked the door and we went to the ambulance. A fire truck had also there. You know how they say to always wear clean underwear because they day you don't is the day you are in the hospital. Yeah that was me that day. I was wear really baggy pj's and felt really shitty looking but when it all came down to it all that mattered was Monkey!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I got into the back of the ambulance and talked with the guy back there who assured me that the way monkey was acting was normal and that each person is different on how they come out of it. He told me that his brother or brother in law or someone like that takes a really long time to come out of it after he has a seizure. He told me that she is running a temperature. It was so horrible to watch her. I kept brushing her hair back from her face and telling her over and over again that it was alright that she was alright and that mommy was here. I really did not like seeing her eyes rolling back in her head and how her arms were like clubs and rigid and how her hands were like clubs. ugh just typing that makes me remember how she was when she was still in the seizure. I remember just sitting there thinking this isn't happening please don't let this be happening!! She's not even two years old! The other two were strapping Chlobug onto the seat in the back with the seat belt. They showed me that she was in there very secure. Then we were on our way. I barely remember the drive, but thankfully it didn't take to long to get to the hospital but when your in an ambulance that makes sense.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So we all got out and they handed Chobug to me and we went in. They brought her to a cubby and there was like a million of them on her. They asked me questions, things like is there anyone in the family that has this happen to them or if its normal for her to be licking her bottom lip repetitively. All of these questions were freaking me out. I don't remember half of what they were saying. Thankfully Chlobug was quiet and not crying this whole time. She was so quiet that the doctor didn't even realize she was there until one of the nurses pointed her out. Monkey was still out of it. The poor thing I hope she never has to go through anything like that again and because she is so tiny they were unable to get the IV in her left hand and she pushed that needle in a few times and then moved it around before they went to her right hand and did the same. The finally got it in and ended up having to put a block in her hand so she wouldn't try and rip it out. She also had to put a splint thing on her arm for the same reason. Then they were getting blood but couldn't get it out of her arm so had to take it from her foot. They did have the heart monitor thing on her finger but had to put it on her toe because she wouldn't leave it alone. She still really wasn't coherent enough. The one nurse asked me if there was anyone I wanted to call and after stuttering something she directed me to the phone. It was like one of my nightmares that I sometimes have where I need to call Chris (its usually him because I can't find him or I really need to talk to him) and no matter how I dial I always screw up. It was like that. I dialed like three times and got nothing before I got frustrated and asked the nurse that happened to come by the desk. Well duh Kristina you need to hit a line before you dial 9 and then your number. But it was a digital screen so I didn't see the line buttons. Finally I got through and then he couldn't barely hear me! The nurse said she had problems with that phone earlier and to just use the other one behind the desk. So I did. finally he could hear me. I tried to tell him what happened and he said that he was gathering stuff and then would be on his way. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">I could hear the doctor and the nurses conferring and they were really concerned that she was not out of it yet or something that really freaked me out but you know how they talk in front of you but you don't really know exactly what is going on because they don't explain things to you. </span><span style="font-size: small;">When I got back they were putting a drip into the iv line that was anti seizure medicine which freaked me out even more. I think they might have said to stop it. I took it at that time to mean that she was still in a seizure and they wanted to stop it. But now that I think back that she probably meant so it doesn't happen again.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Chris finally got there and then it was a waiting game. I have to say that I have never been more happy that I was still nursing Chlobug then I was that day. I almost stopped nursing her when she was 2 months old and I am SO glad that I was so stubborn and didn't give up because we didn't have to worry about bottles etc. It was really awkward to nurse her in the chair but since her head is pretty strong it wasn't that bad. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Around 7:45pm we started talking about what we were going to do for the night. We both couldn't stay up with Monkey. She wasn't getting any sleep that's for sure. First she had all these crappy things attached to her, she was constantly trying to pull stuff off and then getting really frustrated when she wasn't allowed. Poor little girl she didn't understand what they were doing to her and why. She had fallen asleep when they gave her that anti seizure medicine and it was after that that Chris got there so he never seen her the way I did before hand. When she woke up she was more aware of her surroundings and that I was there or that the doctor was checking her etc. She probably was so confused though but I don't blame her at all. It broke my heart to see her that way. I would have stayed with her if I could but since I needed to feed Chlobug, Chris and I decided that he would stay and I would go home with Chlobug and get some sleep and then come back in the morning.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">The pediatrician that was on at the time came back and told us that every thing that they had done so far was coming back clear. They had taken her for a cat scan and there were no tumours or swelling in her brain, the blood tests came back fine and whatever else they did. She said because of that unfortunately they needed to test her spinal fluid so she would have to do a lumbar (test) thing. She came back awhile later to preform this. And again of course two nurses were holding Monkey down on the bed with blankets etc covering her to help hold in in place. She the doctor had got the tube or needle or whatever into her spin but was unable to get samples so they had to sit Monkey up and hold her again while she redid it!! Chris had to hold her head down so she was looking down to the ground. MY poor freaking baby!! She screamed!! I hate that she had to go through this! The fluid after getting a little bit she showed us was very clear, she said if there was an infection or whatever it would have been cloudy so while it was good that it was clear it still worried me about WHY this happened in the first place! They were still giving her Tylenol to bring down her temp a few times. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So I'm not sure exactly when everything happened this might have been at a time when mom was already on her way here. Because I had to nurse Chlobug and I was going home I really didn't want to be at the house by myself. I just couldn't handle it. The stupid cell barely had a signal but I was able to get through to mom and told her what happened. I wasn't sure if she was going to be able to come up since she usually watched my brothers boys after school and has done so since my sister in law has been in the hospital. I asked if Tammy was working the next day because she could possibly get them from school instead. I was like don't worry if you can't but mom was like no no that isn't a problem I just need to figure out how to make it work. I was SO relieved but I wasn't going to insist that she come up if she couldn't. I really didn't like the fact that it was basically 8pm and dark out already and it takes about an hour or so for her to get here. She told me she would call me back after she talked to my sister.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So she called back and I said I wasn't sure where I would be ( I think this did happen before the spinal fluid thing) since I didn't want to leave the hospital until that was done. She said that she would call when she got here. So I figured that at 90 mins I would have to make sure that our phone was getting a signal so she could get through. It kept losing the signal. So then after the doctor did what she did we tried to get monkey to sleep but it wasn't working. It was so tiring! Chris said that if he was staying the night he needed to go home and get some food and grab some stuff and then he would come back and we could leave. I was nervous about staying by myself with the two kids since there was no way I could keep Monkey from pulling stuff out of her arm or falling off the bed! and also having to nurse Chlobug if she needed to be fed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Of course the stupid phone was having a hard time when it came time to watch for moms call. When it finally found a bar there was a missed message and mom said she was now here at McDonald's by our house. She was like I'm not sure where you are and I can't even tell you my cell number to call me back. I didn't have it in the phone either for some stupid reason. I don't know if I was able to call the last call that I missed though. Our phone is not a smart phone lol. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So I called my sister and she was like I don't have moms cell. She said she was going to get it but mom never has it on anyways so she never bother. She was like I guess I should get it now though. She also told me that Jonathon did the same thing to her! That she experienced this as well. I was like what! Really? It made me feel a bit better but at this time I still didn't know what the hell was going on. She suggested that I call JP and that he might have mom's cell. I'm like idiot to myself he does live in moms basement so even if he didn't have her number she must have it written down somewhere. So then I call and talk to him for a few minutes. He said that she had just called home asking him to find her phone book to get my phone number or something. This was all so confusing since I just got the phone message from her but I take it that she didn't have my number when she got here so she called JP to get it and it took him a bit to find it and then she called me. But I missed the call because the phone wasn't getting a signal. Anyways he gave me her cell number to call her. He ALSO told me that John (his son) did that to them as well! His was due to a chest infection or kidney infection or something. I was like wth!! I never knew that about either of them. Turns out mom never knew either lol not until it happened to Monkey.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I had already lost this really weird surreal feeling I was experiencing when we first got to the hospital when the cat scan came back okay. Since that meant it wasn't something like epilepsy or anything and hearing that two of my siblings had the same problem made me feel a bit better. Considering when we first got there they asked me a few times if there was a family history. I still didn't know what was going on though.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So I call mom and she was actually at the ER doors since she just decided to come to the hospital anyways. She said her cell had died after calling JP and then leaving that phone message but when I called her it must have charged enough for her to get my message. So she came in and stayed with me while Chris left and came back. It was so nice that she was there because she watch Chlobug for me while I concentrated on Monkey. Unfortunately before Chris got back they had to take blood sample again. God that was hard to go through again. Poor Monkey her freaking arm was already bruised from earlier! I think I finally had got her to calm down a bit as well. The arm split was so frustrating for her. She was like laying there and then she would all of a sudden scream and throw her arm around trying to get it off. You could hear the frustration in her scream. I felt so freaking bad. She continued to randomly do that since she had that stupid thing on her as well. Finally one of the nurses suggested putting a sock on her foot and that seemed to help a lot!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Chlobug this whole time was still a quiet little angel and as happy as can be. Mom kept saying over and over again what a good baby she was. Chris came back and me mom and Chlobug left. It was about 2am by this point. I really didn't know how I was going to sleep that night especially with Chris and monkey at the hospital still but I knew that at least Chris was there. The nurse was going to bring in another bed so that Chris could lay down as well beside her and hopefully both would get to sleep. I didn't see how that was going to happen since monkey does not sleep on her back. More her side or stomach. That is really hard to do when you have a stupid iv in your arm! </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Me and mom walked back to the car. I hate our car it's so small it's really hard to get the seat into the base and Chlobug is not really light. But I finally got her in there and we got in and we left (Chris got a 24 hour parking pass which made everything so much easier smarty pants) I dropped mom off in front of the hospital since she parked her car at the meters there. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">She followed me back to the house and we went to bed. Chris had brought up the mattresses for the bed upstairs and put them in monkeys room, that way mom could shut the door and not have the cats bother her. I fed Chlobug and we went to bed. I had a hard time falling asleep but I finally managed. I got at least 3-4 hours of sleep. I got up again around 8 and started getting ready to go back. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Chris called and said that monkey didn't sleep at all last night but finally was sleeping and that another pediatrician (the same one that seen monkey after she was born actually) had been by and was telling him that he didn't think she was going to need to stay the next night. They were going to send us up to pediatrics but there was no room up there. As it was there was another little baby in the same ER area as us staying over night. They also were not going to do the EEG that the pedi ordered the night before. Chris told me not to rush back since monkey was sleeping but if I could get him a few donuts on my way back lol. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I finally left the house around 9am. Mom said that she would stay at the house and watch Chlobug which made everything so much easier. By the time I got back unfortunately the pediatrician had already been there. Monkey was up looking so small in her hospital bed and Chris was feeding her the breakfast they brought. I think it was cheerios and milk , eggs and an English muffing or something like that and some apple juice. She seemed in good spirits although she looked super tired and still had the iv in her arm. Once she was done eating the battle of getting her to stay in bed and not rip her iv out began again plus she was super grumpy. She whined and cried when I wouldn't give her a piece of my muffin! But it was chocolate so yeah. Chris said that the pediatrician made him feel okay that she would be safe to go home and that one of his child that had 6 seizures when she was small.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">At one point a nurse came in and told us that it was hospital policy that when it comes with a potential of a infection that could spread we have to be in quarantined. She said I know it's stupid considering you live with her and if she had one you would already have caught it but we need you to put these gowns on, gloves and face mask. I also thought it was stupid that we had already been there for like 12 hours! She said hopefully we can get it lifted since I think they think it is not that. So we had to wear these dumb things. I think they were thinking it could be menegitis since everything else was coming back clear but they really didn't think it was that since the spinal fluid was clear when the doctor took samples. This was all procedure though until they got the results back. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I eventually had to go back to the house to feed Chlobug again and hopefully make it back before the pediatrician came down again since I wanted to talk to him and had a million questions for him. Unfortunately he came while I was gone again so by the time I got back to the hospital, roughly an hour later, Monkey was being discharged. I guess the only thing he told Chris was to call his office on Monday morning for him to see us.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">When I called monday morning after worrying the whole weekend (especially around her nap time since that is when it happened) it sounded like he didnt really didn't need to see us but scheduled us in because I had a million questions. I think he also knew that I was really worried and since I hadn't talked to him directly he was more then happy to see us. He really is an amazing doctor. After our appointment he made me feel sooo much better. Basically he figured she had a febrile seizure and that is actually pretty common and normal, more so if there are close family members that experienced one. He told me that I was still going to worry and probably for a long time but he said that if it happens again if I needed to to just call 911 again. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I can't tell you how relieved I am to know that it is normal and common! But it does still freak me out that it happened for no reason? I didn't think she was sick or not herself before it happened and they didn't find a infection or anything! My sister said it was the same with my nephew and since this has happened mom has talked to a few people that had the same thing happen and more specifically they didn't know their child had a fever until after it happened. Febrile seizure's are brought on not by the fever itself but by the sudden raise in temperature. Treating a fever is no guarentee that it still would not happen. So friggen freaky especially since I had never heard about this before it happened to Monkey.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Febrile seizures also have less of a chance of happening again the older the child is. Since Monkey was almost 2 when she had her first one I think she only has 1 in 4 chance of having a second and from what I have read usually that happens within the first year. They also normally stop after age of 6 so only four more years or so to go of worry! I hope Chlobug doesn't do this to me to I don't know if I could handle that!</span></div>
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</span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-23511652546360727102013-03-07T11:59:00.000-05:002013-04-19T12:02:58.527-04:00mommy belly...<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I remember around this time last year I was very self conscious about my belly because I still looked pregnant and Monkey was just turning one! I felt so crappy about myself and was so depressed!</span><span style="font-size: small;">
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<span style="font-size: small;">This time around after Chloe was born of course my belly is the same way. Sure I know that losing weight will help with that and so far that has been a struggle although since the beginning of Jan I have lost almost 10 pounds. I still have about 50 or more to go so of course I feel like it is slow going. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Anyways sometime I randomly found out that my stomach bulge was due to a diastis recti which is the splitting of the stomach muscles. I have a 2 finger gap at the widest part near my belly button. I do have a bulge that comes out when I lay down to check the gap but I don't know if that is just my stomach fat/skin or if it is a hernia. It doesn't hurt ever so I am not sure. I will be asking the doctor next time we see him for Chlobug's</span><span style="font-size: small;"> next appointment. I am so happy though to know that repairing that split will help me get my flat stomach back! No mummy belly for me! I am so glad that I came across this information though! You are supposed to strengthen those muscles first, close the gap and then you can go and do your stomach crunches etc. I would have just jumped into all exercises including crunches and wonder why it was not getting any better or possible worse! Even when I was at my lowest weight I still had a bit of a pouch and I know wonder if I did have a gap then as well? The hardest part is going to be not slouching anymore. I guess that can make it worse as well. I really can't wait to be able to do Pilate's or something like that again, hopefully soon.</span></div>
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</span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-59310601562900949802013-03-04T11:57:00.000-05:002013-04-19T11:59:15.901-04:00Monkeyness<span style="font-size: small;">Monkey to her sock monkey: "whats wrong?" and as she places the monkey on the edge of something she says "don't fall down" then he "falls". She makes him jump the floor. Then talks to him laying on the ground. I can't really make out what she is saying here though, but this is repeated over and over again in different places in the front room . lol.</span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-64202195248103677212013-02-24T11:38:00.000-05:002013-04-19T11:43:07.218-04:00Monkey sayings<span style="font-size: x-small;"><div align="LEFT">
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<span style="font-size: small;">Then she was over by the playpen that is next to the tv stand and was trying to get in between them to get her "vacuum". You know that thing that has the balls that pop when you push it around? I went over there and said 'No monkey not now can you go play with something else? (I had just put Chlo-bug in her swing for her nap since I just fed her and she fell asleep). She stopped and looked at me and said "Why not?" I was shocked since she answered me and was trying not to laugh since she just didn't say it, she said it in a deep voice "WHYYY noot!" haha so funny!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Then Chris and Monkey were playing in the front room and she discovered a small spider in her bumbo chair (which actually creeps me out since I hate spiders). She was watching it and at one point it got out and she couldn't find it anymore and said "where'd you go spider!"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">When we first got there we saw the nurse first who weighed and measured her. She even asked me if I was okay with getting the vaccinations which I thought was awesome. We have no problems with them since we think it is good for her to be vaccinated. There were two needles and the first dosage of that one medicine that a few years ago was not fully covered. We had to get her to drink that one though. Chris took care of that and held her during the needles. Monkey was happier then anything watching toopy and binoo on youtube. She didn't even glance around when Chlobug started crying due to her vaccinations lol. That actually was a relief since it might have been even more stressful for me. Chloe is a trooper she cried for a few minutes and that was it even though she had a needle in each leg poor thing. I had made some formula so Chris fed her some of that afterwards and she was content. Then the only thing I was nervous about was if she reacted in anyway to the shots (which she didn't thankfully). I also managed to get a few bottles of infant Tylenol which is nice since I didn't have to go out and purchase any. We didn't need to use any anyways which was good, but it is always nice to have some in the house just in case.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">After that the Doctor came in to check her, listened to her lungs and heart. We talked about a few things that I was worried/curious about. Her hands and feet looking mottled from time to time and her eyelids turning red. He said that was nothing to worry about and just due to an immature system.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">We also talked about depression and post partum depression at length. I felt stupid as shit mentioning it but I knew I needed to. I hate taking medicine though so I opted to see if it gets better before trying to take something for it. It never was always everyday but it gets annoying after awhile. I also seemed to fear that something bad would happen in certain spots of the house (mostly near the stairs) and I would avoid those areas or be very cautious if I need to go near them. I also had fears of accidentally pouring hot water for tea on either of them when I am pouring some for myself. Or knocking a pot of boiling water on either of them. The stupid thing is any of what I mentioned above I would never do. It is not something I think about as I am doing it for example pouring myself tea. I wouldn't be holding Chlobug while I was doing that or have Monkey in the kitchen with me when I was doing that or boiling water on the stove for food. These fears are all happening during nursing Chlobug in the chair. It is so stupid and frustrating to sit there and worry about something that would never happen because I would never put either of them in that situation! My imagination is just picking the worst case scenario of what could happen at home and it gets frustrating because I sit there and worry about it!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So Saturday comes along when our nice new bedroom set is to be delivered. It is and they set it up. It is awesome I love it! I love how big it is, how nice it is and how comfy the mattress is!! I was so looking forward to sleeping in it as well. I was worried about bringing Chlobug to bed and nursing her due to a very brand new mattress and off gassing. We decided that I could still nurse lying down but watch TV to keep myself awake and return her to her cradle when I was done. Well then I walked into the bedroom and it stunk of new furniture/whatever it was painted with. This freaked me out and stressed me out. We argued a lot, I looked it up online and did not feel comfortable having Chlobug in there. We opened both windows wide open and circulated the air from the furnace and hoped that it would get rid of the smell. So we didn't sleep in our new bed yet :( She has been sleeping in the playpen and us on a mattress on the living room floor. I also placed vineger in the room and some baking soda to hopefully take the smell away. Today (mon) it still smells but not as bad I don't think.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Yesterday I had so many solutions going through my head like we would have to put Chlobug in Monkey's room and I would have to go get her and nurse her in the hallway or in the front room or we would have to lock the cats in the basement (which we did the last two nights and they spent the night banging on the door and meowing :( ) and leave our door open and have her cradle just outside our doorway in the hallway. I have no idea what we are going to do! I just want to sleep in our new bed DAMMIT!</span></span><br />Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-67938700251722521462013-02-05T11:51:00.000-05:002013-04-18T14:26:42.088-04:00hopefully not another nap resistor!<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Little bug is actually napping in her swing! NAPPING IN HER SWING! I nursed her at around 11:20am to about 11:48am and then set her in her swing and turned it on so I could go make lunch for monkey and me. Took her a few minutes but she feel asleep! I am excited that maybe just maybe she will be way easier to get into a nap routine (when she is ready of course since I think she is still to young for one) and actually fall asleep easily by herself? I think it helps that her belly is full and she is a good nurser.</span><span style="font-size: small;">
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<span style="font-size: small;">I never seem to feel like or have time to sit down and journal anymore and it sucks. Things have been going okay I guess. It still is an adjustment with trying to juggle two kids especially when Chlobug wants to nurse or be held all the time. Mornings can be the worst since if Chlobug wants to eat and then monkey wakes at the same time I either have to listen to the baby scream while I hurry and get monkey dressed and fed or make monkey wait in the crib ( or out in the front room) until I feed Chlobug. I feel bad about making her wait but most times she really doesn't seem to mind hanging out in her crib. She usually has a few toys in there with her anyways. I don't know what will happen when she is out of the crib. I'm not sure when that will happen but probably soon except now I think we might get her a twin mattress since the mattress in the basement is to big to have in there with the crib. I think we should just get her a toddler bed but I'm not sure how Chris feels about that? We had talked about it before but who knows, I have no idea what we are going to do. It's really hard right now to go out and look at anything together since it's cold out and I'm nursing plus it's more of a pain to try and juggle the two of them. I guess we could always just get someone to watch them but still. Bah we just have to sit down and figure it out.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I joined Weight Watchers online a few weeks ago. I seem to have a lot of points but then I get extra because I am full time nursing. I have so far lost 2 pounds and I am on track to have lost at least another pound on my Friday weight in. I'm glad that I joined when I did because when I was trying to lose a week or so prior to that I kept screwing up. There are a lot of resources online that I like and I like it better then going into the stupid meetings which I found to be boring for the most part. Online is also cheaper then going to weekly meetings. They had a deal where you could join for free so that was even better. I would like to lose more then a pound a week but right now I am happy to have at least be losing! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">I'm not sure how long I am going to continue to nurse. It's driving me insane. I finally stopped recording every time I nursed her and all her diapers and that has seemed to help a bit. Right now my one nipple is hurting and she struggles to latch right away sometimes. She twists her head down a lot after latching as well. I find it nice at night though since I try and feed her or dream feed her around 11 before we go to bed. Lately she has been sleeping to at least 4am then I just bring her into our bed and nurse her on one side until I wake up and then we switch sides. I was getting up and trying to nurse her and then putting her back in the cradle but it was sucking. I need my sleep and I get really angry in the middle of the night if I can't. I hate that I am that way and I know that is what babies do (eat constantly) but it really is hard to keep calm when I am so tired all the time. Our bed is sort of small to so even nursing in bed is not fun either. I am always sandwiched between her and Chris basically has to hold onto me so he doesn't fall off his side of the bed lol. It kills my back and my legs are always aching when I wake up. I'm afraid to switch to bottle feeding though since I really don't know two things about it (ie how much to give her and how often). Nursing her to sleep is my fail safe and basically is how I get her to sleep so if she doesn't go to sleep when being bottle fed then what will I do? I have no idea what to do anymore. </span></span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-56632601284194314872013-01-11T14:02:00.000-05:002013-04-18T14:09:58.800-04:00night time feedings suck..<span style="font-size: x-small;"><div align="LEFT">
<span style="font-size: small;">I feel amazingly awake today! Yesterday was another story though. The night before we were able to put Chlobug into her cradle without her waking up to much. She did stir a few times but giving her her pacifier and resting my hand on her chest she fell back into slumber easily. I thought sleeping at night was getting better because the few nights before she was like this. I thought adding the heart beat for white noise was what was helping and moving the night light into the bathroom. But I was wrong , terribly wrong. The night before last, like I said, she went to bed easily and woke up around 3am to eat. Unfortunately she wouldn't stay asleep nor fall asleep in her cradle even though she only ate on one side and no matter how hard I tried to wake her up a bit so she would latch on the other side, she wouldn't wake up. But of course when I put her down she started crying. After trying to get her to sleep for 30 minutes I finally had to get up and nurse her again and then the same thing happened. Eventually after almost 2 hours of this Chris got 2 oz of formula and tried again. Nope, she wasn't having any of that. Chris at this point was doing most of the trying because I was just soooo tired and angry that I wasn't going to be much help at all. Finally around 6am I was like just bring her to bed and I will nurse her laying down. So we finally got some sleep again but not really to much. All day I was cranky, tired and had no patience and to make matters worse every time I went to do something and set Chlobug down she would get cranky after 5 mins which just added to my frustration! </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So being fed up and exhausted by the night before I just saved us all the hassle and brought her to bed with us when she woke up in the middle of the night and was able to sleep until 8 am. Although holding myself in that position really does a number on my back and my neck especially when I am on my right side for some reason. I really don't know what will happen when and if I decide to wean because I am still really considering that but for now we will see how it goes.</span></span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-79656987611620853672013-01-07T13:48:00.000-05:002013-04-18T14:02:00.597-04:00fun times of parenting<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I feel really down today for some reason. Last night I fed the munchkin at about 20 to 11 and by 11:20 Chris and I were getting ready for bed. I hate night time now because it's always a struggle to get Chlobug to sleep. All I have to look forward to then is a few hours of sleep, sometimes 4 or 5 if I am lucky, before she gets me up to nurse her again and then it's another fight to get her back to sleep. Last night we decided to put on a cd that is a recorded sound of a real moms heart beat. I don't know if it was that or what but she went into the cradle without to much problem. I was shocked! She did wake me up about 2.5 hours later though which sucked but to my surprise she would only eat off one side. No matter what I did to get her to wake up a little bit or enough to latch on the other side she wouldn't. I finally gave up and decided that if she woke up then I would just have to get back up to feed her on the other side. I was able to set her down with no problems! It was amazing! She woke again around 6am and I just nursed her in bed while laying down. I find I can get a bit more rest that way but it really kills my back when I do it since I keep myself completely rigid so I don't move at all. I guess because I am afraid of squashing her or something. It beats having to drag myself out of bed to nurse her though. Our bed really isn't that big either so there really is no room to move.</span><span style="font-size: small;">
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<span style="font-size: small;">Last night was just SO perfect since I got decent amount of sleep. I was also then able to nurse her in the chair at 7:30am and not have her screaming her head off while I try to get monkey up. I was able to dress monkey and fed her oatmeal and eat myself without Chlobug screaming. She then took a 3 hour nap and when she woke up she was content and just looked around for a while. It was so weird!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So my day started out perfect but it didn't stay that way unfortunately. Not long after I got monkey dressed and was making her oatmeal in the kitchen my perfect day went to shit. I didn't hear monkey come into the kitchen and when I turned from pouring water into the oatmeal to get a spoon I bumped into her. She went flying down on her bum with this shocked look on her face. I was frozen with probably a look of horror on my face because I couldn't do anything to stop it it happened so quick. That wasn't even the worse part. After she landed on her butt she flew backwards and banged her head off the floor. I don't know if it was my face cringing or her shock and her hitting her head but she started screaming! I felt so horrid. I picked her up and consoled her until she calmed down. God I felt so horrible and couldn't stop saying sorry to her. So once she was calm I put her down got the rest of her breakfast ready then put her in her highchair. While I was pushing up the sleeves on her dress I hit the tray which I thought was locked into place. Turns out it wasn't and it went flying to the floor with a bang, which made her scream again. I think the loud bang scared her so much that of course she started screaming again. So I picked her up again and tried to calm her down again. What a horrible horrible morning. She finally did calm down and ate her breakfast and all was well thankfully. Geeez!!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Ttoday since it was sort of warm in here I decided to put a onesie on her, which I was always to afraid to do with Monkey because her neck was so wobbly. Chlobug seems to have better head control and I am more confident so I put it on her, put her in her swing after I nursed her with a blanket under her and she was fine for a bit. Unfortunately eventually she started screaming so when I went to get her I discovered that she had a really bad poop that soaked the front of her. It was on the burp cloth on top of her and on her new fuzzy blanket. No wonder why she was screaming. when I picked her up she was soaked all the way up her back to. I was like seriously!! The ONE time I put her in a onesie and this is what happens. That is the way my luck rolls I guess. lol. It wasn't even one that snaps in the front it had to go over her head. There was just sooo MUCH poop! and everywhere as I discovered when I opened up her diaper. That wasn't fun trying to get the onesie off of her without getting poop everywhere! I just put her in warm jammies again since it was getting chilling in the great room again. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Monkey during the holidays drank from the plastic orange shot glass Chris uses to give her some juice by herself for the first time. There wasn't to much left in it but we were both amazed that she was able to do it herself a bit. Although when he tried it again she ended up spilling a lot on her but it's a start. Shes been a pro at the sippy cup for along time now so it's abut time really but we will take it slow. She also surprised us last night when we were just finishing up supper. Chris had Chlobug in his arms while he was eating since she was crying and he asked me to get some pie for him. He spelled it out though 'can you get me some p-i-e please?', I was like okay but there isn't a lot left. We both did a double take when Monkey started saying iIwant some pie. Smartypants!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">It was so nice to have Chris off for 1.5 weeks over Christmas. Near the end I was nursing Chlobug in bed in the morning to get some more rest and then we both slept in a couple of hours. I didn't have to worry about monkey since Chris was getting up with her. So it was nice to get some extra zzz's. I miss that, since I can't do that anymore because once monkey wakes up we all get up. We didn't go home for Christmas though which sucked but I was to nervous about having to drive there with Chlobug still only a few weeks old. Also being around so many people and having two suppers to go to etc was just to much for me. I was getting anxiety just thinking about it. Since I am nursing as well I just couldn't do it. I'm sure the stress would have killed my supply. It's sort of a good thing since it took Monkey like 4 hours to open her presents. I don't think she yet understands the whole Christmas thing. So with a lot of coxing and help she finally opened all her gifts. Staying home was also good because it seemed like the baby was eating every hour. I think she probably was going through a growth spurt or something. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Chlobug has been okay. She is nursing well aside from sometimes feeling like she is always hungry. This time around it is going better, since I am not afraid that she isn't getting enough. I am just finding that the constant nursing and holding her, that I have hardly any time for Monkey and it makes me really sad. I am probably going to be weaning Chlobug earlier then I did Monkey. Right now I am trying to get to 6 weeks and then maybe I will start. It is just to frustrating for me especially at night that I can't do anything since she just wants to eat all the time and always when I am trying to do something. It also takes a bit of time as well. I don't know I feel guilty though thinking about it. I would love to get to 3 months though but the night time feedings are hard. I guess I might try just bottle feeding her in the middle of the night instead? It's really hard to get her to go to sleep at night since like monkey, she always wakes up when we set her down in the cradle. Sometimes she does go to sleep but most of the time not and then after an hour or so of trying to get her to sleep I drag myself out of bed to nurse again. Then in the middle of the night it's the same thing she is dead asleep at the end of the nursing session but as soon as she is in that cradle she wakes up and cries forever. I really don't know if it will be any different with formula but at least then it won't take as long. I don't know what to do since I feel guilty thinking about it but seriously I want my body back I want to be able to go somewhere and not have to rush home in less then an hour. I have only went out once since I came home from the hospital and I went to Michael's craft store to get a few things.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I feel weird right now. I don't even know how to describe it. Chlobug is in her swing sleeping with her soother and Monkey is in her crib napping. It's getting dark in here already which makes me not want to do anything. Actually right now I would just love to crawl into a dark hole and disappear but I can't because have to take care of the kids - or even really laying down under the covers and listening to music and letting my mind fly away. The last few days I have been taking a long hot shower to have a little time to myself after Chris gets home. I really just feel hopeless and lost and I am sick of worrying about if Chlobug is going to be okay. She ate really shitty a few days ago and then was breathing really weird all day long and part of the night. She randomly has been making these weird noises as well. I don't even know how to describe it, it's like she is going to choke on her spit but stops breathing and then a few moments later she is fine. I don't know whether I should be concerned and take her to the doctor or what. I really hate that her next appointment is Feb 7th. That is over 6 weeks away! I thought babies were checked over more often especially if they are breast fed.?She has been pooping enough and peeing decently but the last few days again she has been having trouble latching. I don't know why? She also is spitting up a lot to which after the air comes out and the spit up she just wants to eat again. I am getting tired of feeling like a milk cow or something. She is eating 12 times a day. I hope it gets better because I don't know how long I can go on like this. I am so afraid of dealing with the constant plugged ducts again.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I really wish that Chris was home right now though. I need to take a break from everything. A nice hot shower sounds wonderful to me right now. I hate winter and it's dark at 4:30. Chris always seems to get home really late as well. I'm so behind in everything and I really just wish all this weight from both pregnancies was gone. The worst is I really can't even work out yet since I am only two weeks post partum. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Also Chlobugs belly button thing fell off on the 8th and since then there is always dried blood in her belly button. I hope it's normal but it gets on the inside of her jammies or on my clothes when I am feeding her. We gave her her first bath in the actual bath tub on the weekend and we wiped the blood out but there were more crusties there again soon after. She doesn't like the bath at all. She screamed her head off every time so far. UGH I don't think I can handle this much longer. I think everything would be better if I was just formula feeding her. A lot of the stress would be off me and Chris would be able to help with the overnight feedings. But I have this mommies guilt since I stuck it out with <span style="background-color: yellow;">Monkey </span>for almost 7 months. I also don't want to regret stopping either. This time around it's not so bad it just sucks feeding her after dark and at night. Although she for the most part sleeps for at least 4 hours overnight. Still though I hate getting up in the middle of the night and being cold to feed her. She obviously is getting enough though since she is peeing enough and these are nice heavy diapers so I don't know what to think. I hope it gets better soon though. I hate to think that maybeIi am suffering a bit from post partum depression!</span></span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-34358381873686960372012-12-05T16:25:00.000-05:002013-03-29T16:29:48.196-04:00off to the hospital again..and the doctor..<span style="font-size: x-small;"><div align="LEFT">
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<span style="font-size: small;">Anyways the consultant really helped me. She suggested using a simple sns system that did sort of what the nurse the day before did. This time it was a tube that was attached to a syringe. She just sucked up some formula (although she said of course I could use expressed milk as well but since I didn't have any with me we just used that) so we got the baby to latch then she slipped it into her mouth and every time she stopped nursing she pushed the plunger and then the baby would start eating again. I was so amazed! I couldn't help but think why the hell the other consultant that was at the hospital before not suggest this to me with monkey? This not only helped her to keep eating and thus not having to fight with her for hours on end at feeding time (which was really exhausting with monkey) but also stimulated my body to know that it needed to produce more milk. She said that we probably would only need to do that for a few days until she wasn't as sleepy as she was. </span></div>
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It was awesome that Chris was with me but he probably didn't get a lot of sleep. But neither did I so we were even. The baby kept us up that's for sure. I was nursing but I was feeling like it was going all wrong again and it was starting to hurt a lot. The night nurse said that she would put me on the list for the lactation consultant to come see me and it would probably be in the morning. The day nurse that came in checked my latch and said that it was fine but I looked down and didn't see how she thought that. It turns out because she thought it was good she told the lactation consultant not to bother coming to see me! I mean when I heard that I was a little mad! I guess I can understand that she was already booked solid but still!! Please don't make that judgement for me especially when I was having nipple pain and had so much trouble the first time around AND I was not confident at all.</div>
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It was hard to get in and out of bed and go to the washroom which is to be expected and it really sucks! I hate this part. I probably would have had an easier time nursingif I could sit up properly and not have my back like totally killing me and not being able to shift to much. I had my nursing pillow this time as well and lots of pillows around me.Another good thing about having a private room (and ours was at the end of the hallway which was even better) was that I felt comfortable with taking a shower and not worrying that someone else needed to use the bathroom! It was SOOO nice!</div>
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They had a girl there that was learning taking my blood pressure etc and she went and got the nurse when I asked if she was coming around sometime because I was having troubles. She was so amazing. She saw what I meant when I said she was falling asleep almost immediately and went and got some sugar water or something and showed us that when she stopped nursing to drop a drop in the corner of her mouth and she would start again. It worked so well I was so relieved!! She said that we could also use some sterilized water as well when we got home. She spent a lot of time with me before we were released. I told her about the troubles with nursing monkey and how stressful it was. She told me that often times people are to hard on themselves and give up because they feel like the baby is getting nothing when in fact it is because they were so stressed to begin with. Stress effects your milk supply. She was like I am going to make a suggestion and it's only a suggestion and I always make sure I say this now because she said she got in trouble once for saying it. But she said I could always nurse the baby then give her an oz of formula or expressed breast milk (if possible) a few times a day so that you know that she is getting something. Just until my milk comes in or even for a few days after that. I was like holy crap why didn't I think of that? I mean I would have literally went home and suffered through it the way I did with monkey and get so stressed out about it that my milk supply probably would suffer again. We talked about other things but she made me feel so hopeful that I could actually do this. She was like you know what before you leave and since I know how the baby has been nursing I would feel more comfortable if before you go that you feed her a bit of formula. She was like it is just a suggestion but said it would make her feel better and probably me as well. I was like you know what yes lets do that. I was told that the baby was a bit jaundice around this time to and that was another reason why I was OK with feeding her a bit of formula to help flush it out of her system. I was told that she was a bit jaundice offhand and not like just so you know she is a bit I mean seriously!!! I wouldn't have known that she was you know!? I don't even want to think about what would have happened if she wasn't getting enough fluids or whatever, and got worse and I didn't notice or something!! </div>
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Chris fed her a bit from the bottle the nurse gave us. I cant remember how much maybe 10-15mls? But I felt honestly felt SO much better. It felt like forever before we actually left the hospital and this time at the desk we asked about a wheel chair. They seem to not have very many there for some reason? I mean do they actually think that people can make it all the way down to the pick up area after giving birth?? I did make it the last time but I almost passed out in the process and it's hard to walk <em>really</em> slowly because you feel so stupid! The walk is pretty far as well. The helpful nurse found one and wheeled me down while Chris carried the baby. I then waited inside while he went with the baby to get the car. Even that much tired me out! But I was SO happy to be home and able to sleep in my own bed. </span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-34470716208311086932012-12-02T15:34:00.000-05:002013-03-29T15:52:42.953-04:00It's TIME!!!<span lang="EN"><div align="LEFT">
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So I woke up at 4am with what I figured was contractions. I didn't wake Chris up just yet though. I kept timing them. They seemed to be coming every 3 mins pretty regularly. They were not to intense yet I could still talk through them but they weren't the nicest feeling at all. Finally I woke him and said I think I'm in labour. So he timed a few. I wasn't sure if I should call mom yet but since they were pretty steady and if I called her then she might be up in here before we had to leave for the hospital. Chris got me the cell phone and I called her and she said she would be on her way in a few minutes. I got up a few minutes later to go to the washroom and I was bleeding like mega. This freaked me out. I knew that you could get a bloody show along with losing your mucus plug but I wasn't sure how much blood you would lose. I was freaked out by the amount that I was bleeding so we decided to head to the hospital. So I called mom back and told her we were going to go there and we would have to bring monkey with us. Thankfully I had my bags packed already so we gathered all the stuff I needed to bring, then got monkey up. We just put her in her winter jacket in her PJ's and made sure she had a few blankets on her as well. We had the stroller in the trunk already so that wasn't a problem. I felt so bad for having to drag her out of bed. :(<br />
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Unfortunately when we got to the hospital it was freaking raining out! We had a few mins of walking to get to the entrance as well which sucked. We draped one of the blankets over the stroller to keep her dry as possible and went in. She was actually pretty good! She had at least 8 hours of sleep by the time we woke up so she wasn't cranky or anything. All my stress for nothing. She was sort of half asleep for awhile so just sat in the stroller and watched us. The nurses hooked me up to the monitors and asked a bunch of questions. Basically eventually they said the baby looked fine and that I could go home and come back when the contractions got were I had a hard time ignoring them. She said it was up to me though and that most people like to go home for a few hours and then come back since that way they can rest and eat something. I was so tempted to stay but I also wanted to be able to eat something so I decided to go home and come back. Thankfully by the time we were ready to leave Tam called on the phone and said they were in the parking lot. I told them I was going home for a bit so we would meet them there. <br />
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My contractions were getting worse by the time we got home but they still weren't that bad. They were just uncomfortable. This morning was surreal I have to say, since I spent so much time freaking out about labour, going into labour, when it was going to happen, what we would do with monkey etc and now it was here and I wasn't stressed about any of that. It just seemed natural. I ate a bagel and cream cheese then decided to go lay down on the bed since it was more comfortable then sitting on a chair out with everyone. Eventually though they were getting to bad that I felt like I just wanted to be at the hospital and that way I could relax since I didn't want to be almost giving birth and being stuck in traffic on the way or something.<br />
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So we went back and Mom and Tam watched monkey at the house for us. I was hooked up to the monitoring machines again. The doctor on that day wasn't my doctor but she was pretty nice. She was the same one that was there when I went in for my leg being swollen. I was admitted and got to pick my room. They said that the huge room with two wall of windows was open or room 3 which was smaller. I walked into the big one and was like umm nope lol. I felt like everyone and there uncle could see in! The nurse said most people think the same thing and go for the smaller room. The nurse went to get the tub ready while we went to the room and Chris and the doctor in training brought our stuff in. She was super nice as well.</div>
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So when I got back into my room the IV was put in by the doc in training. The nurse put a couple of emla patches on the back of my hands since the doc in training (I cant remember her name) was going to do it. She has done it before but needed more practice. OMG it hurt like hell and I swear she was like pushing the needle in but sideways. I don't even know but my hand really hurt by the time she was done. I made the mistake of looking at one point since afterwards the doc commented that I looked better and that I went pretty white at one point. lol.<br />
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After this it was pretty much a waiting game. Pretty much right after I got into the room and had my IV in we talked about an epidural and she said that they would call it down and get the stuff set up for the doc when he came. I am so glad for that since my contractions were getting worse and it was all I could do to get through them. I was pretty close to tears a few times and it was so hard to breath. I had Chris's hands every time it peaked but that really didn't help. I was SO FREAKING RELIEVED WHEN they said he was there. I had asked one of the nurses when we first went in the wee hours of the morning how long you would have to wait. She said usually from the time it was called down it was about 20 mins and it rarely goes for an hour. It never goes longer then an hour. Well I tell you my luck it was an hour wait. Like I said I was never more relieved when they said that he was there. I remember at one point one of the nurses came in and said he should be here soon it usually never takes this long. I remember one said that he was in the ER or something which made me cringe because who knew how long it would be then. The few contractions that I had while he was doing it still sucked ass but at least I knew pain relief was on its way. The contractions just got less and less painful and finally went away. I think it must have been close to 2pm at this time. Chris was thinking of going to get food and I told him that he better go then since the last time I had an epidural it seemed like after I had it the rest of my labour went quickly. So he started to leave but ran into Mom and his mom in the hallway. They came in and talked to me for a few moments then went to go get something to eat. I thought Chris would get food and come back but he ended up eating with them. </div>
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The nurse that was looking after me eventually came in and said that she wanted to see how I would do pushing so we did a few. Then left to go tell the doctor I guess. Chris was back at some point. Then it was just a matter of waiting for them to come back and get me to push again. She did have to give me a bit of pitocin I think because once I started actively pushing the pressure started to back off. The little bit helped get it going again. So I pushed for I don't know how long, maybe 20 mins? At this time I think both docs were there. I remember the nurse helping the head come out. I guess all of a sudden the head was out they screamed for me to stop pushing. I looked up and the one doc in training like whipped her sweater off and threw it against the window while the nurse ran to get her a gown. I guess they didn't expect the baby to come out that fast. After that it was really small tiny pushes and the baby slide right out. They clamped the cord and got Chris to cut it. The one doc in training said something about she is a cutie. I looked at Chris and was like is it a girl? He was like yep.</div>
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They didn't have to take her away so they put her up on my chest. All I could think about was how tiny her bum was in my hand and how sticky she was. But it was nice to cuddle like that for a bit. They did have to do some repairs though so it was a bit of a wait with stitching again. I don't think the tear was as bad as last time though. They eventually took her to weigh her and she was 7lbs 11 oz. One pound lighter then monkey. I tried nursing for a bit before we were going to go tell mom and Chris's mom. They decided to bring me to our private room before shift change. I guess usually they wait until after because it was so close to shift change but decided to do it before. So I got a wheel chair ride down and seen Chris's mom in the hallway. I think the one doc helped Chris with the bags again and him and my mom and his followed us to the room.<br />
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</span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-59363792296773105002012-12-01T15:21:00.000-05:002013-03-29T15:34:03.759-04:00Anxiety, it is getting so close!<span lang="EN">I had my doctors appointment on thrus (nov 29th). everything seemed good, the scale is still around 220 (yuck!!!) and babies heart rate was at 140 which he said was also good. I guess I was only 1 cm dilated so he did a membrane sweep, which really wasn't not fun at all! Thankfully that is over with. So we scheduled an appointment for next friday. He said if I make it to that one then we would talk about how to proceed. I keep thinking this baby will come on the 8th but who knows. I am so ready to not be pregnant anymore since its uncomfortable and tiring walking or standing to much and trying to sleep. But I am still freaking out about actual going into labour and delivering. Plus I probably will be stuck at the hospital for a few days. The only good thing with that is we are getting a private room so that might make it better. Although 200 a day sucks ass. <br />
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After the appointment we went to pick up monkeys Christmas photos since they were in. Unfortunately there was only one girl there and she was taking photos so I had to wait for like 10 mins. I normally wouldn't have cared but I am 39 weeks pregnant, I was starting to overheat and I really just wanted to go home! Plus I was super tired since the night before we went to bed late, then I had a pain in my left side that went away but came back 30 mins later and it was horrible! It might have been the way I was sleeping. But I was uneasy sleep because I was wondering if I was going to go into labour then. No such luck.<br />
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Yesterday when I got up for the day I was thinking about monkeys pictures and sure enough they didn't give us our freaking Christmas cards that came with the package we bought. Everything else was there though. I called and they said just to come get them. I was annoyed though since I didn't want to have to go back there especially this close to my due date!<br />
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Thankfully Chris went there today. It was nice that I didn't have to leave the house. He said that the line up was insane in there so it took him a bit to get to the cash to ask about the cards. Still hello! thanks for giving them to me when I went there the first time! shesh.<br />
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I think I might be losing the mucas plug though, hopefully that means that my cervix is softening! I wish labour was over with. I don't know how I am going to be able to handle a new baby and monkey as well. Chris mentioned the other day that he wished that he had that extra week of holidays now to take after I had the baby. I now agree as well although it was nice to have that week off together in August even though I was to tired to do anything much. My anxiety keeps going up and down :( I just want to meet the new little bean and have this horrible delivery part over with!! lol<br />
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10:30 pm: It still seems like I am losing my mucus plug, some still tinged with blood. I have been having more intense braxton hicks contractions I guess. Not painful but still uncomfortable. I'm so not ready for this. The worst is, is that it's night time! I don't want to have to get mom to drive up here in the middle of the night. I hope if it comes down to that my sister will come with her! :( The anxiety of possibly having to bring monkey to the hospital is starting to suck and I have no idea when to call mom? Like if they keep happening of course but what happens if they aren't as intense or I don't get anymore do I wait or just call her and see what she thinks? I would have for her to have to drive all the way up here for nothing. At least if she comes up she will be here just in case, but then I might be okay tomorrow then she would have to go home and come up again? ahhh this sucks I hate once again being so far away from them!!<br />
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So I am started to get serious anxiety about giving birth again. I don't really have a choice seeing as I am due next week but am sooo not ready. I just don't know if I can handle going through the whole not getting any sleep, trying to nurse, not being able to walk around easily the first week and then I have monkey to watch as well. I think mom is planning on helping me at least for a few days so that will be awesome. <br />
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I just really want everything to be over with. I hate not knowing when it will start. Today the baby must be right in my pelvis because it has been hurting a lot today (and probably the past few days as well) . My stomach is sooo huge and looks likr a beach ball. I don't remember it looking like that with Monkey. I'm still nervous though! Babies are so much work and I am always tired now and don't get anything done as it is :( GAH! I hope though labour starts during the day and mom can get here to watch Monkey when I need to go to the hospital and that labour starts gradually. UGH when will this be over?<br />
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I was having a strange dream last night. I don't remember alot but I do remember that I was at the hospital, even though this hospital and town reminded me of no town I have ever seen in my life. Anyways I needed to get to the other part of the hospital that for some reason was not in the same building and I think I was in labour. I have no idea where Chris was and for some reason Tammy's ex (Chris's sister) was going to drive me there but instead he stopped at a grocery store first to get some stuff. He was taking forever that I finally got annoyed and left to find the place myself. It seemed to take forever to find and then get inside. I think I finally did but I felt like I was going around in circles. I don't really remember what happened there but then I was where Chris was and he was mad at me for some reason. I guess because I didn't call him or something even though I had at one point tried my hardest to. He wouldn't talk to me and I was freaking out because I was in labour? Weird dream.<br />
</span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-73517398253666584992012-11-20T13:12:00.000-05:002013-03-29T13:13:31.361-04:00Doc appointment and other rambles..<span style="font-family: Times New Roman;"><span lang="EN">I had another doctors appointment yesterday (mon) he had my results back from the strep B swab thing I had to do a week before at the last one. It came out neg so that is one less thing to worry about. This appointment went okay. Nothing worrying me and everything seems to be normal. It was a long wait though which sucked. We got there and the whole place was full! So that and monkey not wanting to sit still made it a tad bit stressful for me. I am glad that my weight seems to have stopped rising. It's around 218 I think. Ugh I hate even thinking about that number or looking at it but it is what it is and when this baby is born I can start to lose the weight. (ha it was hard for me to even admit that in my blog!)<br />
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I am starting to get more and more anxious since I have no idea what labour coming on naturally feels like. We asked him when is a good time to go to the hospital and he said when contractions get to be about 7 mins apart it is sometimes a good time to go in. The sucky part is that monkey will have to come with us but I think if I start to feel contractions I can call mom and hopefully someone will be able to come up before I have to go to the hospital. For the last few weeks, off and on, I have been having menstrual like cramps. Although it seems like there are more of them this past week and more like braxton hicks contractions. It feels so weird when my stomach gets so hard. I guess I better get as much sleep as I can now because soon I will have none and no time to nap unless Chris is home.<br />
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Monkey is as cute as ever. Her sayings now include 'oh no!' 'I see it' (she normally says this and points to the lights), and 'lets go see (grandma, grandpa etc)'. I just love her to death. She is getting so big and she constantly wants me to read to her which is awesome but I have to say I do get tired of reading the same book over and over but I am happy that she takes an interest in reading!<br />
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The saturday that just past we took her to the mall to get pictures with Santa! It was his first day being there and that is definitely the time to go since there was hardly a line up. She sat on him without any freak outs although she wouldn't look at the camera to much. But the photo we got of her is cute! We get to get the Christmas photos we had done at Walmart next week sometime. <br />
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I think at my next appointment which is next Thurs he is going to check to see if I am dilated at all and he may be doing that sweep thing. Which I am not looking forward to since it was not the funnest the last time. I am so ready to not be pregnant but at the same time I don't want to go through all that again! AHhh at least we have baby names now though. The baby is still so freaking active and today especially. There can't be to much room left in there since it sort of is uncomfortable when the baby stretches or kicks or punches or whatever the baby is doing. I can't wait to find out if it's a boy or girl though!! So exciting.<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">I have been having weird dreams but I can never really remember them lately since they were complicated it seemed. Last night I had one again but this time I knew it had to do with the baby. All I remember is that I was upset that Chris installed the baby seat in the car wrong since it was so easy to move around and it wasn't even hooked into the shell. There was more to it but I forget now. It was one of those back and forth dreams where you never make any progress. It sort of sucked. I was relieved to wake up. The funny thing is I know that that seat in the car doesn't move at all and it's pretty secure so I don't know where that worry came from. </span></div>
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omg I don't know what I did to my back but it is killing me right now! It didn't hurt at the start of the day I don't think but definitely got worse as the day went on. I was soo happy when Chris came home because that meant that I didn't have to pick up monkey anymore. It sucked having to put her in and take her out of her crib when I tried to get her to nap or anytime that I had to change her bum or when I put her in her high chair. I hope it feels better by tomorrow morning or this is going to suck. Ugh this sucks!<br />
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Tomorrow is Chris's birthday and I plan on making lasagna for supper. Hopefully I will be able to move :( I have no idea what I am going to do if I cant! ughhh why can't it be the weekend already.<br />
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Monkey was so cute today. Around 11 am Max and Ruby was on and Ruby was trying to play twinkle twinkle little star on the piano but her brother kept interrupting her. I wasn't really paying attention to the TV to much but I realized that monkey was singing and it sounded SO MUCH like twinkle twinkle little star. Most of the words were gibberish or at least I couldn't understand them but all the words at the end were almost totally clear! I also love when she plays with her farm set and animals or the sesame street characters with the store front and she is talking like they are talking to each other. It's so cute to watch her. Her voice even goes up and down. I could listen to her do that all day long! <br />
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To my relief she also had a poop today. It wasn't that big but it was at least all one lump instead of a bunch of turdlets and it seemed a bit more then yesterday so hopefully we are making some progress. Even though I would say she is still constipated but at least she got some out.<br />
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I'm not looking forward to tomorrow though since my back is killing me. The baby is so freaking active today. I can tell there isn't to much room in there since sometimes the movement is really uncomfortable. Soon enough I guess.</span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-24636241013546957422012-11-06T12:30:00.000-05:002013-03-29T12:38:20.131-04:00Getting Anxious..<span lang="EN">
So the past few days I have been getting more anxious for the baby. I am not really ready house wise for the baby to come. I also hate that I have no idea when it is going to happen. I am 36 weeks along so basically it can happen anytime! A day last week, near the end I had really bad menstrual like cramps in the afternoon which freaked me out! It happened about three times about 20-30 mins apart. I was like noooo not ready but thankfully they stopped.<br />
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Yesterday and today again I have been having random menstrual cramps. I think its probably my body getting ready to have the baby. The baby has been moving a lot though so that is good. I never have had to do the whole drink a glass of water and lay quiet and count the movements because the baby has been moving so much. There can't be to much room left in there!<br />
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Wow yesterday morning was horrible though. I got monkey up as usual, got her dressed and then put her in the highchair and gave her her breakfast banana flavoured cookie while I got her milk. She drank that and I sat down at the computer beside her to eat my breakfast while she was eating. Then all of a sudden she started crying really hard. She was like shaking at one point which freaked me out. She still had the cookie shoved into her mouth. She did this a bit a week or so ago and I think later Chris said she did the same thing on the weekend. We are pretty sure she must be cutting teeth again since she is constantly chewing on her fingers and sometimes her wooden blocks. So I figured even though the cookie melts in your mouth it's still pretty hard when you bite into it. I figure she hurt her teeth while trying to bit into it. I did try breaking it into smaller pieces and fed her one that she ate but the second one she wouldn't even try to chew it but started crying hysterically again. It eventually melted in her mouth. <br />
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I decided at that time to ditch the cookie and bring her to the front room where I had a little bunch of cheerios with her water for her to eat. This is normally what I do, eat the cookie with milk and have a bit of cheerios while watching treehouse in the morning. I put her down by the coffee table and she just kept crying. I tried holding her and rubbing her head to sooth her but nothing was working. I have to admit I was trying really hard to hold my temper. I was getting so angry and it wasn't because she was crying it was out of frustration that I didn't know exactly what was wrong even though I had a good idea, nor could she tell me what was wrong. I felt like such a horrible person, one because I was failing at consoling her and also because I was losing my temper. I was tired as well having not slept very well. <br />
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I put treehouse on and had to go call Chris at work since I was so frustrated. She calmed down though and started eating her cheerios and was better. She did give me a dirty look shortly after when I asked her a question though. She furrowed her brown and glared at me! lol. She never did that before. Thankfully though she was back to normal for most of the day. She did start to get cranky like that later on but it was short lived. <br />
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So today I decided to fed her oatmeal instead of her cookie and there was no pain or meltdown today. I was defiantly relieved. Except another concern for me is that she is getting constipated even worse then she has been. I am getting frustrated at what to do! I watched her today at around 4:30 strain really hard to push them out! I thought she must have had a big one since she pushed so hard and it was smelly. Chris got home at around the same time so I made him change it (lol ) but there was hardly any in there! I hope tomorrow is better. I think we have come up with a plan to improve her diet since she must not be getting enough fiber. If that doesn't work we will have to take her back to the doctor for advice. Oatmeal in the morning with milk, less then I normally give her of cheerios between breakfast and dinner with water. Lunch will have veggies (peas and corn etc) and avoid processed package foods as much as possible. Supper will be more veggies with prunes and other items but without milk. Maybe she is getting too much milk and dairy. We are going to avoid any other form of dairy for now just to see if it helps. I am really worried that she is going to get to the point where she tries to stop the poop because it is so hard to pass now and make it worse. We probably will give her some prunes probably with both lunch and dinner. It helped before. She is pretty happy otherwise.<br />
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Her words and phrases are 'uh oh' 'oh nooo' and yeeehaw.. So freaking cute!<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">It isn't abnormal for me to come home from work with a swollen feeling in my feet and legs even when I am sitting down for most of my shift. Last night though I came home and commented to Chris that it was really weird that my right leg seemed to be way more swollen then the left (if the left even was swollen). I figured it was just a weird pregnancy thing. Well anyways I randomly decided to look it up and then became REALLY alarmed when I read repetitively that it could be a sign of a blood clot, especially if the swelling is present in just one leg. This is after midnight I might add, so I was already tired and cranky and just wanted to relax before bed. Then this happened. Of course it's a Friday night as well so I couldn't even call my doctor in the morning. I didn't *think* it was a blood clot because I had no pain or red streaking in my leg but I didn't want to take a chance with my life especially when every where is telling me to get it checked out pronto. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So first I called telehealth and talked to a nurse there who basically told me that he recommended I go to the ER. I was so upset and freaking out because like I said before I really didn't want to go anywhere I just wanted to go to bed and sleep! Of course its' the middle of the night! I hate the parking lots at the hospital because the ones closer I have no idea how much they are, who can use them etc. So I always park in the biggest one. It really isn't that far from the er doors but still I am pregnant and it's the middle of the freaking night! Also I had to go by myself because Chris needed to stay home with Monkey.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I had the cell with me though so when I got there I parked as close as I could to the hospital got my cell out and talked to Chris until I got to the doors. I was prepared to kick anyone that came anywhere close to me though. Anyways they sent me up to labour and delivery because of how far along I was and hooked me up to their monitors to make sure the baby was fine. Then asked a million questions and poked my leg a bunch. I think the doctor that was on that night just determined it was normal swelling since I had no pain or red streaking but said she would order an ultrasound anyways because I guess she could see how freaked out I was. So I left dreading that I had to walk back to my car in the middle of the night by myself. You know what I found when I got back to my car? The whole parking lot is EMPTY and there was a really big van/truck parked right beside me! On the driver's door side! Like seriously! haha that annoyed me but I guess that person wanted to park as close to the hospital as they could as well. :( Yeah I am paranoid like that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So I had to go back to the hospital in the morning and they did the ultrasound. Thankfully she found nothing so I was really relieved. I just have to mention the swelling to my doctor the next time I see him.</span> </span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-78731663252452063732012-10-04T13:17:00.000-04:002013-03-27T13:19:16.131-04:00More teeth!<span style="font-size: small;">It was a wooden block today (the 'W') that she put into my hand today, which was covered in slobber, I might add. I was talking to Chris on my break at work and he said that he noticed she was doing that as well and she was getting two top teeth on either side, next to the top four she already has! :)</span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-52300923555427629402012-10-03T13:15:00.000-04:002013-03-27T13:17:00.779-04:00<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Monkey has started to grab my hand, turn it over and put a book into it. I think I read 'my funny monkey' to her a million times today! She has done this randomly though before but just a lot all of a sudden. Chris also mentioned that she was doing this to him as well. Today was the first time that she really has done this to me repeatively. Thankfully the book was a short one lol!</span></span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3258656192015498493.post-32054979140147146342012-09-21T13:04:00.000-04:002013-03-23T13:19:01.474-04:00Time is flying by!<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I have no idea where time is going! It's already the end of September! I remember in July when it was scorching out that it was never going to be this time and here it is! I have about 4 weeks left of work (19 shifts left) although now I am considering a 5th week tacked on to that but I am taking it a week at a time. I have been running the auto machines the last two week ( I pretty much just go to #6 if its running a certain job) since my supervisor a few weeks back kept asking me to run it. I might as well get there right at the start of the shift instead of quarter after when there are to many parts to catch up easily. I figure until it's not running as an auto or he sends someone else or tells me otherwise I will just do that. It hasn't been to bad. Although now weighing the boxes at the end of the night (there normally is only 4) is starting to get to me. I still hate being at work but at least the shifts are flying by and I am free to use the washroom or go on break whenever I need to.</span><span style="font-size: small;">
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<span style="font-size: small;">Monkey is doing well. Last week I watched her have her hippo toy on its side and was putting her sheep toy from the farm set on it and then spinning the wheel and then making angry noises when it went flying off. But she just put it back on and did it again. Crazy kid. It's so fun watching her play because you never know what silly thing she is going to do.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Today she decided that standing up then letting herself fall on her bum was great fun. The last few days she has let me cuddle her. :) She rarely does that so it's nice that she is starting to.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">She had to get her 18 month needle on Monday which I was dreading. It was just one thankfully though, and it was another dosage of stuff she has had a few times before. Chris sat her on his lap in front of the computer screen where the nurse had a sesame street video on youtube featuring Feist singing 1234. Her eyes were glued to that and she barely registered that she stuck her arm with a needle. There was no crying or anything. I think we were all shocked but very relieved. She got a Winnie the poo sticker and that was that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">We did talk to the doctor about her constipation. He said if we can control it with diet that is the way to go but there are kid friendly laxatives if we need it. I have given her prunes regularly before and it really seemed to help so we decided to just try that again. I also got him to check her ears while we were there because she picks at them sometimes or scrunches her shoulder way up to her ear. I thought it couldn't hurt to get him to check them while we are there and if it was nothing then I wouldn't be going home and worry about it. He said they were both fine. He also checked her stomach to make sure it was soft, which it was. He said somtimes if they have trouble passing stool their poor little tummies get hard! So thankfully it was also okay. He also comment on off hand that she has a nice toddler belly pudge. haha which in the back of my mind I was wondering if that was normal and I am glad that he said that. Her belly is huge! lol.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">The only other concern that I had was for the adult pertussis vaccination since there have been cases again in my province and in the States. I guess they are finding that the vaccinations are wearing off. I'm not as worried about monkey since she is vaccinated for it but I am worried about the new little one that is coming and that me and Chris's protection might be waning. I really don't want to pass it on to my baby since they don't get their first dosage until 4 months! Other then that that was all we had to talk to the doctor about. He said to call back when one of the nurses was in that knows more about it or call the health unit because they would have more information on that vaccination. I don't think I can get it right now anyways since I am prego but still one of the many things I need to do.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">As for my pregnancy I can't believe how quickly it is going by! I am starting to feel it though. I feel huge and heavy and sometimes my pelvis really freaking hurts. It's hard to shift in the bed and I can't lay on my back at all. My legs get swollen really easily especially after getting off at work (and I sit most of the time!). My back starts hurting at work to but not like the last time. But it might be that the parts I was working on last time I had to lean over a table a lot.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Monkeys new saying is 'hi it's me!' sometimes she will say it's mommy or it's daddy. So cute!</span></span>Krissyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04915480385044698862noreply@blogger.com0