So it's been really weird being home all day long. My last day of work was last friday. Last week seemed like it would never end, but now it's like I almost (almost!) feel like I could have or should have worked this week at least. But then when I stop and think how I felt last week and the week before it just seems like it wouldn't have been pleasant. Still seems really weird. I have been not as tired as I have been the last few weeks since I can actually sleep in now so that has helped. I love being at home right now. I have been just puttering around cleaning, straightening up, getting some stuff done that I would like to get done before the baby is here. Mainly my scrapbooking stuff since I have everything in the babys room right now. We want to paint that soon so I need to get it done and out of the way.
I was worried the other night since I wasn't feeling baby move at all and my belly felt less hard then normal but thankfully baby has been kicking and punching again. I think I'm just getting really anxious and can't wait till baby is here since it's so close now. At the same time though I am freaking out since I have no idea what to expect with labor etc. Especially with the whole will Chris be home when it starts. Right now I'm trying to relax and not think about it to much. Whenever it does freak me out I just think about the moment when we get to see our baby for the first time :) and now that any pain that I go through will be worth it.
We have booked the first monday of Feb at the hospital to go on the prego ward tour. I am relieved that they have room for us still since they only do it once a month. I will feel loads better knowing where to go etc and what it looks like when we actually go there to deliver. It still is really nerve wracking.
Mom and Tam have set a baby shower date for the 30th of Jan. I'm excited for that. I can't wait to see all the cute little baby stuff. :) I have my next doc appointment this friday. I expect it to be okay since everything seems to be going okay and we don't have any real concerns. I still feel very unready. I'm worried baby will come early and we won't be ready for her/him at all. I need to read up on what to expect more. It will be nice though not to have to get up and pee every five mins. At night, when I wake up, especially if I fell asleep on my right side it hurts so much to roll over get out of bed and get to the bathroom. It's just the most uncomfortable feeling ever. Soon enough I guess. I should enjoy this alone time while I can. It just really sucks being at home by myself all day long without Chris. I much like the weekends better because he is here to! :)