sick..

Last night I think I actually got some good sleep. Even though I didn't go to sleep until almost 4am and I then bolted awake early in the morning as soon as I became conscious because I knew something was wrong. Chris was still sleeping beside me. I looked at the clock and seen that it was blinking (the power must have went out) and then looked at my watch and it was like 9:15ish. So he basically bolted out of bed and got ready quickly and went to work. Just after he left I started to feel sick. I layed in bed until almost one when I made myself get up. I didn't want to but really I had to since I have to work tonight anyways. So I got up and made something to eat even though I really didn't feel like eating. I did finally start to feel better just shortly before 2. I don't know if this is my first sign of morning sickness or not. I really really don't want to have to go to work. I feel so exhausted all the time and this is nothing new so it's not due to being prego. I haven't felt the need to throw up so far so that was good.  I'm so glad today is thrus though. Just today and tommarrow then the weekend. I am looking forward to saturday. HA we will see how long this "I am prego stays under wraps" since I talked to mom tues night and she said that she did tell Tammy (my sister) and told her she could tell Steve (my brother-in-law) but no one else since I didn't want anyone else to know, at least until I went to see the doctor. LOL mom said she almost let it slip sooo many times. hehe :)

ugh time to go get ready or work. I lied, my stomach does feel a bit queasy still. Can't wait to be past this part. :( I wish I could be a stay at home preggers. lol

:)

So When I called the doc office on the 5th they had a message saying that they would be gone for two weeks and we can call to make appointments on the 19. So that sucks.  I hate waiting!

I did tell mom on saturday that I am prego but haven't been to the doc yet to officially confirm it. She was pretty happy saying that there hasn't been a baby in the family in a while. So now I am pretty excited. Although I am still worried about all the crap I breathe in at work. It's something else I need to ask the doctor about. So far though it's only been my boobs getting huge and swollen and aching although today they seem to have stopped hurting so that is nice. Every once in a while I get lower stomach cramps that last maybe a minute and go away. I don't know if it's stomach cramps related to my body changing in preperation for the baby or what. Thankfully either way they don't last to long and aren't like all the time. :)

YES!! Success!!

Soooo I took a test this morning since I should have been due for my period this week but still haven't gotten it. My boobs for the last week or so have been HUGE and hurt like hell and I have had slight cramping for the last four days and no period. So today I took a test and almost right away I seen two lines! So I am prego!! Wow I really don't know how to feel. I am happy of course but also freaked out at the same time! So Monday I have to call the doc and make an appointment to confirm! I just want to tell people now or at least mom. ahhhh hehe. I know past periods I thought I was pregnant before so I was trying not to get my hopes up this time. MY stomach feels super weird and I just feel fat which sucks :(

:)

the month long wait again...

I didn't bother testing for prego yesterday morning since I assume that it was my period. Blah. I thought maybe it could be implantation bleeding, (well I was hoping) but that occurs like 10 dpo and seems like an early period to some. This period was definately like a late one which made me thing that I might be prego as well. :( So it will be back to trying again for a few weeks until I ovulate then it's the dreaded 2 week wait again. This time around though we are taking temps and recording other things to help us keep track.

double :(

Ugh it's almost time to go to work :( I still don't know what to think about my psuedo period? I am still crampy but it's standable without having to take anything for it. Only a stupid test will tell me and since I work till midnight and I don't think wally world is open after hours anymore, I have to wait till Saturday to buy one then Sunday morning to take it. 8 hours, only 8 hours to go. I have to keep telling myself that. Hopefully I will have a late break which will make the last part of the shift go by fast. The first three hours are normally the worst.

:(

So I just got up today and now feel like I am having slight period cramps!! I don't want to get my period I want to be prego! I am so confuzzled. I have never had my boobs be like they are now - sore and super swollen. Also being so freaking tired all the time no matter how much I sleep. I want to be pregoo :( We will see what happens I guess. I really don't see how I could not be pregnant?

and again...

I am totally convinced now that I am pregnant. I won't be at 100% until I take a test on the weekend but my boobs are so sore and sooo swollen. I don't think I have ever felt them like that before. I don't know I just have that feeling that I am. I am sort of excited but scared at the same time. Life will definately be different once the little one comes! But I can't wait to tell people :) I have to say I think I am also less creeped out by the fact that I will have a baby growing in me. Before it weirded me out and I couldn't help thinking about aliens and space balls where the alien burst out of the stomach. But now it's different, maybe because it is actually happening and I can't do anything about it. Well really though I want kids, not sure if I am ready for it but turning almost 31 means it's now or never because I don't want to have a child at 40 and be like 60 when they are 20. Or at least be having my first baby at that age. I think we want at least 2-3 kids and hopefully have them all before I turn 34 -35. I guess it depends if we have a girl and a boy right away or if the first two are doubles (two girls or two boys). It would be nice to have one of each for sure to make both of us happy. Although in the long run as long as they are healthy that is all that matters to us. I really want to have a girl first though, but like I said as long as they are healthy it's all good. Before I had always imagined that I would wait until the birth to find out the sex of the baby, but at least for our first one I think we want to find out when we can.

I really can't wait to have a baby belly and be able to experience the baby kicking. Now with the baby issue it's a dilemma on which style/floorpan of house that we like the best. There is one that we both really like. But there is only a master bedroom and one other bedroom. There are a few rooms in the basement that we can convert to rooms since they do have windows but if we have two kids in three years where would be put the oldest? Wouldn't really be a big issue if the first two are girls or boys because they can just share a room. I have no idea what to do. The ones with more bedrooms I don't really like the layout as much. Plus some of them have the bedrooms right next to the front door. Also with the possible bedrooms in the basement I don't think I would want to put my 3 year old that far away from us. It would be different if they were 8-10 years old. If we build a house I would hope that we would be there for a while, at least 5-10 years. Ugh so many decisions!