boo to work :( stressed...

It's almost time to go to work again! :( About 3 more months-ish, then I can hopefully go on mat leave! :)

I told a co-worker that I was prego on Wednesday on one of our breaks. She was like 'woahhh that's weird' and was telling me that she said the other night when we were both on autos she was thinking that maybe I was prego or wondering if I was because my belly was a bit plumper then it was when she started. She was like you were fairly skinny when I started here and I was thinking that maybe you were and for you to tell me that now that's just weird. lol then her son came in who also works with us and she told him. So yesterday when we were waiting at the punch clock to find out what machine we were running that night she came up to me and asked if I was four weeks or four months along. She was like her and her son had been arguing about it all day he said I was four weeks and she said I was four months. I forget what she would have to do if she was wrong but she told him that if she was right he would have to walk home lol. So she rubbed it in his face when she found out she was right. I thought that was funny. :)

I haven't been feeling so exhausted as of late which is good. Yesterday I even worked out for 20ish mins. Even though I got up at 12ish and even made some spagetti sauce and spagetti for lunch. (Yeah I know a weird thing for lunch but my suppers are normally a salad or a sandwich) I think I found a vidoe that I would like to get to work out to that's specific for pregnancy people. The Summer Sanders one. They are not annoying and they are even funny so that is good, plus it has a workout for each trimester. So Chris was like how about you get it if you work out 5 more times lol. I didn't work out today though. For some reason I have been like out of it until 12pm everyday. I thought today I would be getting up early since I was semi awake earlier but nope. I fell back asleep and finally got up at 12. OMG it's FRIDAY though. But so much to do this weekend yikes!

15/40 weeks - baby belly

I'm definately starting to show now I think. Or at least to me. It might not be to noticable to anyone else. At least my pants still sort of fit. :)

is it a movement or am I just crazy?

So I have been feeling the odd twitch/fluttering in my belly and I don't know if it's just a muscle spasm or if it's baby moving? I don't really think I am showing to much. It's not completely obvious that I am prego although wearing my black sweater sure makes my belly look rounder :( I used to feel skinny when I wore that sweater! LOL not anymore :(

worried...

I have a doc appointment on the 24th (next friday) so hopefully he can think of something to do for the exhaustion. I need to talk about how bad it was before we conceived although it's much better then it was. I was also at that time not losing weight but that could be cause I was eating more then I should but still. Don't know what to think? I want to work out through the pregnancy but so far haven't since I've been tired or just don't have enough time between when I wake up and go to work. UGh I can't wait until I am off on mat leave. Come on december!! and come on Novemeber!

My baby belly still isn't that big although I am into the bigger size clothes again. Although I really should go look for some mat pants soon. At least a couple. I want to get the jeans with the elastic top thingy. But to have the time and energy to do so ugh. :)

I guess I should go get ready for work since its 2:30 already! :( I have been also having some weird dreams the last few nights. I really need to write them down in my dream journal soon before I forget them! I was having one today to I think but I woke up so fast that I forgot it almost instantly!

baby cashew :)

Baby Cashew I have to say that I can't wait to meet you even though I am totally scared of delivery. I think mostly for myself just because of all the trouble with my heart/ whatever that whole ordeal was. I keep thinking positive though and visualizing myself after the birth and holding you :) I also can't wait to find out if your a little boy or a little girl :) I know your daddy also can't wait. I couldn't imagine waiting until March 8th!

I also worry that something will be wrong with you, like you will have a birth defect etc. I second guess everything that I eat, was it cooked enough, was it cleaned enough before eating it. I worry when I forget to take my multivitimin and worry when I forget to drink milk. I guess I worry to much. All babies on both sides of the family are healthy and that is all I ask for for you. That you are healthy. I would love for you to be a girl, but in the end as long as your healthy it really doesn't matter to me :) And really no matter what happens we will always love you - healthy or not. I try to think positive - so far the blood tests etc have come back fine - except my thryroid number is higher again but Doc assured me that it's still in the normal zone. Just something we have to watch for and also my blood pressure just because my bottom number has been high in the past. It's good that he is looking out for that. Also he found your heartbeat super quick and said it sounded strong and good. About 8 more weeks before we can see if your a boy or girl. Well only if you will co-operate and show us :) love you little cashew. We can't wait to meet you :)

Doc appointment!

OMG! I had my doctors appointment today and we heard the baby's heart beat for the first time! It was amazing! It's crazy to think that the little cashew already has a heart beat that is beating constantly and that we can hear it. Just doesn't seem possible!

I only got about 3-4 hours sleep last night. Then we got up and drove to the doctors. Chris came with me so he could hear it too. The doc appointment was pretty quick. He just went over my blood work and urine sample etc. He said that my thyroid was still high, lower then before but still high. So that could be why I feel so exhausted allll the freaking time. He said we will just have to watch it. Unfortunately the three main signs that it's acting up are the same ones for pregnancy so yeah. I had actually forgot about my thyroid. Here I was thinking that getting old sucks and how am I ever going to have the energy to chase after our kids and how other people my age seem to me more lively then me. But it's probably due to my thyroid. I said that my exhaustion was the same though and he told me to tell him to let him know if it changes. But after I thought about it it really is worse. I mean some days I have to drag myself out of bed and the only reason I do that is because I have to go to work. Being at work sometimes sucks because I just want to let go and collapse on the floor. So now I am kicking myself about that. I have another appointment on sept 24th so I will definately be mentioning it to him them. I thought maybe I was just burning out with work (being on straight afternoons, hardly ever seeing Chris etc) but my thyroid is probably the culprit. I mean my exhaustion is the same now then it was before I was pregnant so yah that is prolly why I said what I did. Only four more weeks to get through then I can talk to him about it more.

But hearing the heart beat was amazing. It was super fast but he said that is normal for babies which are much faster then ours. He said it would be even faster if the baby was awake. So the little bean must have been asleep. Awww! I cannot wait to meet this little person. You hear that baby. I love you tons already :) I really can't wait to find out if it's a girl or a boy. 8 more weeks on that!

Chris said that he was excited to go to the doctors last night and said today that he was really glad to have gone. That's just a big awwww. hehe Daddy loves you too little cashew!

I can definately feel that my stomach is different. It's gotten bigger but it's not just fat I can definately feel something different in there. More then likely it's the placenta. He said I probably won't feel baby movements until 20-30 weeks I guess. I'm only 12 so yeah! I am so excited. Just wish I didn't feel so run down all the time. I want to work out but it's hard to find the energy when I know I will be standing for 8 hours everyday! :(

11/40 weeks - baby belly!

MY baby belly as of august 22. Starting to show a tiny bit I think? :)