this past weekend...

So last saturday (the 17th) me and Chris went home to attend Tammy and Steve's surprise 25th wedding anniversary. Just after we got there Steve asked me if I was really prego. I said, 'yep' and he was like all happy and said congrats and gave me a hug. Steph (my niece) had just walked into the garage just then, she made a funny face and was like, 'okay?'. She was like 'oh nevermind, well I can probably guess'. So I was like, 'yep'. She got excited and was like really??!?! Then was like, 'Don't worry I won't tell anyone'. I did mention that I haven't gone to the doc yet because he is on holiday for two weeks. I couldn't call to even make an appointment until the 19th. It was so hard that night and day not to say anything to anyone. Especially at one point when Aunt E and Christine (cousin) were bugging me asking when we were going to have little ones. Mom said she has already almost slipped a few times. So she will probably be relieved when she can finally say something and tell people.

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Last night even though I was so tired, I couldn't get to sleep. There was thunderstorms going on but still. I woke up and really did not feel rested at all. I ended up laying in bed until 9:30. I felt not well and slightly sick to my stomach, but got up to call the doctor to make an appointment, but unfortunately they were not there until noon. So I went back to bed. I just couldn't sit up at all. I know I was having really weird dreams. The only thing I really remember about this one is that I was on a treadmill? lol I don't know.

I got up around 12:30 again and called the doctor and she booked me in for next wednesday at 11:30 am. So that's good. I still feel like sometimes that I am not prego anymore or was never to begin with. I don't know why. Even though I know that's not possible considering I haven't got my period so yeah. lol. I took a quiz thingo on the bump.ca and it estimated that I would have a girl. So we will see if that is right. I think it would be nice to have a girl first, but really as long as the baby is healthy, I really don't care.

ugh I need to go get ready for work :( I am not looking forward to standing for 8 hours. Although I did get some new insoles so hopefully they help my feet. I want nothing more then to be able to stay home! I guess I will be able to do that in like 6-7 months? Seems weird that little baby cashew has a heartbeat already :) The only down side is I was not were I wanted to be weight wise before getting pregnant, and with my breasts so swollen feeling and huge and I just feel so fat and gross :( ugh :(

sick..

Last night I think I actually got some good sleep. Even though I didn't go to sleep until almost 4am and I then bolted awake early in the morning as soon as I became conscious because I knew something was wrong. Chris was still sleeping beside me. I looked at the clock and seen that it was blinking (the power must have went out) and then looked at my watch and it was like 9:15ish. So he basically bolted out of bed and got ready quickly and went to work. Just after he left I started to feel sick. I layed in bed until almost one when I made myself get up. I didn't want to but really I had to since I have to work tonight anyways. So I got up and made something to eat even though I really didn't feel like eating. I did finally start to feel better just shortly before 2. I don't know if this is my first sign of morning sickness or not. I really really don't want to have to go to work. I feel so exhausted all the time and this is nothing new so it's not due to being prego. I haven't felt the need to throw up so far so that was good.  I'm so glad today is thrus though. Just today and tommarrow then the weekend. I am looking forward to saturday. HA we will see how long this "I am prego stays under wraps" since I talked to mom tues night and she said that she did tell Tammy (my sister) and told her she could tell Steve (my brother-in-law) but no one else since I didn't want anyone else to know, at least until I went to see the doctor. LOL mom said she almost let it slip sooo many times. hehe :)

ugh time to go get ready or work. I lied, my stomach does feel a bit queasy still. Can't wait to be past this part. :( I wish I could be a stay at home preggers. lol

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So When I called the doc office on the 5th they had a message saying that they would be gone for two weeks and we can call to make appointments on the 19. So that sucks.  I hate waiting!

I did tell mom on saturday that I am prego but haven't been to the doc yet to officially confirm it. She was pretty happy saying that there hasn't been a baby in the family in a while. So now I am pretty excited. Although I am still worried about all the crap I breathe in at work. It's something else I need to ask the doctor about. So far though it's only been my boobs getting huge and swollen and aching although today they seem to have stopped hurting so that is nice. Every once in a while I get lower stomach cramps that last maybe a minute and go away. I don't know if it's stomach cramps related to my body changing in preperation for the baby or what. Thankfully either way they don't last to long and aren't like all the time. :)

YES!! Success!!

Soooo I took a test this morning since I should have been due for my period this week but still haven't gotten it. My boobs for the last week or so have been HUGE and hurt like hell and I have had slight cramping for the last four days and no period. So today I took a test and almost right away I seen two lines! So I am prego!! Wow I really don't know how to feel. I am happy of course but also freaked out at the same time! So Monday I have to call the doc and make an appointment to confirm! I just want to tell people now or at least mom. ahhhh hehe. I know past periods I thought I was pregnant before so I was trying not to get my hopes up this time. MY stomach feels super weird and I just feel fat which sucks :(

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the month long wait again...

I didn't bother testing for prego yesterday morning since I assume that it was my period. Blah. I thought maybe it could be implantation bleeding, (well I was hoping) but that occurs like 10 dpo and seems like an early period to some. This period was definately like a late one which made me thing that I might be prego as well. :( So it will be back to trying again for a few weeks until I ovulate then it's the dreaded 2 week wait again. This time around though we are taking temps and recording other things to help us keep track.

double :(

Ugh it's almost time to go to work :( I still don't know what to think about my psuedo period? I am still crampy but it's standable without having to take anything for it. Only a stupid test will tell me and since I work till midnight and I don't think wally world is open after hours anymore, I have to wait till Saturday to buy one then Sunday morning to take it. 8 hours, only 8 hours to go. I have to keep telling myself that. Hopefully I will have a late break which will make the last part of the shift go by fast. The first three hours are normally the worst.