Baby Cashew I have to say that I can't wait to meet you even though I am totally scared of delivery. I think mostly for myself just because of all the trouble with my heart/ whatever that whole ordeal was. I keep thinking positive though and visualizing myself after the birth and holding you :) I also can't wait to find out if your a little boy or a little girl :) I know your daddy also can't wait. I couldn't imagine waiting until March 8th!
I also worry that something will be wrong with you, like you will have a birth defect etc. I second guess everything that I eat, was it cooked enough, was it cleaned enough before eating it. I worry when I forget to take my multivitimin and worry when I forget to drink milk. I guess I worry to much. All babies on both sides of the family are healthy and that is all I ask for for you. That you are healthy. I would love for you to be a girl, but in the end as long as your healthy it really doesn't matter to me :) And really no matter what happens we will always love you - healthy or not. I try to think positive - so far the blood tests etc have come back fine - except my thryroid number is higher again but Doc assured me that it's still in the normal zone. Just something we have to watch for and also my blood pressure just because my bottom number has been high in the past. It's good that he is looking out for that. Also he found your heartbeat super quick and said it sounded strong and good. About 8 more weeks before we can see if your a boy or girl. Well only if you will co-operate and show us :) love you little cashew. We can't wait to meet you :)
