11/40 weeks - baby belly!

MY baby belly as of august 22. Starting to show a tiny bit I think? :)

I'm such a procrastinator..

Ugh I need to write in here about my pregnancy more and take more belly pictures. I need to stop procrastinating and write about it. I really want to document this fully as the time goes by. Now I am in week 11, about half way through it. I definately can feel something in my belly. I feel so fat and gross it sucks. I made the mistake of getting on the scale a moment ago and absolutely disgusted with myself, not only because of the number that showed but because I can't stop freaking eating! Mostly Crap to. UGH I need to deal with it now! I need to make a plan and stick to it. Basically eating healthier and working out. I did work out on monday for 25 mins and that was the last time that I did. I don't know what to do. I have start to make a salad with lots of good stuff in it (red onions, peppers, grapes and tomatoe ) so that is a start. Oo that reminds me I need to take my vitamin today. I forgot yesterday. Going to go do that now.

I'm supposed to take it with food but I usually forget and seriously it's like right in front of me as well and I still forget! It's so hard to get down it's so huge. It makes me want to puke! The last few days getting up I have felt really sick that I have to lay back down for a few minutes until I feel good enough to get up. Last night to by the time we went to bed I was feeling sick as well. It helped that chris was rubbing my back, stomach and head though. Last night about an hour before work was done I was feeling really nauseous to. Usually around 10 I start to feel it but sometimes I suck on a candy to take my mind off of it and it usually works. I need to go to SDM and see if they have the jolly rancher candies. They are much better then the ones I currently have.

I need to go bra shopping tommarrow as well. My boobs have been killing me! Some days are worse then others but man! If I don't have a bra on or I just take it off holy CRAP! I usually wear my pink yoga bra around the house and to bed. It's not very supportive though but it's better then nothing. My bras really didn't fit to well to begin with but they are worse now. Last night I had to wear two just to make myself feel secure. Ugh sometimes I hate being a girl. I really hope I don't really weight 176!!!! Geez the other day that I checked first thing in the morning I was only 172! That I can take. God I don't know what the doc is going to say next week! I'm sure they will weight me. Cries! Why couldnt I be one of those people that lose wieght when I am prego in the first trimester! (yes I understand that that really isn't the best thing and no I really don't wish that I just feel like shite about myself at the momement) I probably wouldn't eat so much if I was working days or if I was home though. It's hard to explain but standing at a machine starving really sucks since you can't do anything about it until you are on break. So it's like I eat more so I don't get to that point. No matter what I do though it seems like by midnight I am starving! Blah :(

I really hope I'm not 176. I won't feel better until I weigh myself tommarrow. Also I'm sure I still fit into my jeans so yeah :( you know gaining weight wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to go to work. Hopefully all the weight will just be in my belly.

Cranky

My belly I think feels rounder although when I look into the mirror sideways I don't think I am showing at all. What's there is what has always been there, my natural crappy belly. Unless of course I let my gut out but once again that is normal lol. I'm just hoping to not get any stretch marks!

surprised

Last friday a fellow co-worker congratulated me on being prego. He said he thought I was even before we told anyone because of my cheeks I guess. They were flusher then normal? lol. He has two kids and he said that he knew both times when his wife was pregnant even before she did. It's funny how some people are more preceptive about things like that :)

nauseated

So today Baby Cashew - mommy puked for the first time. Not fun at all just so you know.

I thought I was going to get away with not being to bad but wow there was no stopping it this time. I feel so gross. I just finished eating to! :( So I don't want to go to work tonight at all because it will be harder to get to the toilet if it happens again and plus now I have nothing in my tummy and I would have to leave for work soon. I would need to eat something and that just isn't happening not after that. grr. I hope Chris gets my email soon and tells them. Guess if I don't hear from him by 2 pm I will call work.

Ugh I hate throwing up!! I don't think I could handle the heat etc tonight. It has just been way to hot at work lately.

first doc appointment...

Yesterday I had my first doctors appointment since conceiving :) I went and visited with Mom and Aunt Lena who was down until my appointment. They dropped me off then went over to Metro to get some food or something. I went in and had my first baby appointment. He asked me a bunch of questions etc standard stuff I guess for baby, like how my diet is, if im eating enough milk products etc. I had to have a physcial to. Blah not fun. He confirmed that the baby is 8 weeks. Well he said he would guess 8-10 weeks but since my period and numbers are pretty exact I am 8 weeks. He also guessed that my due date would be march 8th. Weird though eh if the baby comes out that day since I am born on the 8th and so is Chris. He also said that my uterus was tilted and then was like lets see if we can find the babys heart beat. He was like but you have to promise not to get upset if we can't. He was like I don't normally try but since yours is so close to the surface we might be able to find it. So he tried and I got all teary eyed and emotional when I though he had found it but nope. So I have to wait until my next appintment next month to hear it. I will be 12 weeks then! I just have to get some blood work done before then. I guess it's standard stuff for pregnancy. It's nice to have him confirm that I am actually pregnant because I really beginning to feel like I wasn't.

The funny thing is that before I always thought it would be really weird to be pregnant and be strange to have a baby growing inside of me but now that I am it's not so. It never bothered me when other people were prego but to think that I would be at some point sort of freaked me out. I always thought of Aliens where the baby alien pops out through the stomach. But not so anymore :) Which is a relief to me lol.

So once we got back to moms house I told her that she can tell people now. She was like you know how hard it was not to tell people! Aunt lena was really shocked I think when I told her why I was going to the doctor. I think that was the last thing she expected me to say. But she was really happy and got up and gave me a few hugs. :) So she was like so when I talked to my kids I can tell them right? lol.

I told Chris that he had to call and tell his mom now because I would hate for her to run into mom and mom say something thinking that she knew! lol that wouldn't be good. He called her last night and she was excited. I guess she said she was wondering when we were going to think about having kids but she didn't want to ask. She said the girls will be so excited.

Ugh I have to go get ready for work and I really don't want to. I just want to sleep or lay and relax on the bed. lol.

8/40 weeks - baby belly shots

Photos of my baby belly. I'm 8 weeks and not showing at all. lol